I want to committ suicide...?

Question

I've tried it several times before, but I failed. Years have passed, and I still feel this way. Has anyone out there, who felt this way years ago, changed their view on the world? If so, and you now feel life is worth living, what made you change your mind? What was it(even if there's several things) that made you feel everything was ok?
Sometimes the only thing keeping me going is the thought that after I kill myself, I'll wake up to a life just as bad, or even worse!
(I no longer believe in Jesus or God. Please do not try to convert me, or make me feel that this is what is wrong with me. I have believed in God since I was a child up until 21. This doesn't mean that I hate Christianity! Or any religion for that matter, I just don't believe.)
(Oh, and I've spent my college money to go to a counselor, to a psychiatrist, and psychologists. I want YOUR answer.)
I have to let this one go to vote. So, I'm asking for truthful answers, people who care. Thank you.

Answer 1

may be u had a different body when u were a child, as you grew the body also changed. its changing from time to time. death, may be yet another point where the body again gets changed. So far, so much of tastes can be accomplished or fulfilled with this body, may be its better to allow this body to fulfill those tastes, cause as you stated, you don't know which body u r going to get next, worse or better? some what in these lines speak the scripture called Bhagavad Gita.

Answer 2

I've died several times in my life, and it was never easy. But let me explain what I mean by that.

You've heard the term 'born-again Christian', right? It comes from some people who find religion - they feel as if their whole life has started over. The person who they were before has become like a stranger to them. Let me tell you... it doesn't happen just to Christians. I think it happens to a lot of people under many different circumstances.

And in that sense, I can recall dying at least three times. And it was never fun. Sometimes it was quick and agonizing, sometimes it took years of suffering. It got a lot easier once I started to realize what's going on. And that's why I'm telling you.

I think that's what you're feeling now. Your old values aren't working, so everything seems worthless and even unendurable. But you also know that most other people don't feel that way - rather than feeling out of place because of that, you need to FIND your new place and get ready to shed your old one.

You may already know what it is and think it's not possible. You may even be right. But TRYING to get it will make you miles happier because you'll be taking a shot at your dreams instead of weighed down by your fears. Most people I know who write books, for example, know that they probably won't be the next blockbuster author, but they take joy from doing what they love as well as they can.

If you don't know what it is, I can almost guarantee there is SOMETHING. The world is a huge place, and is filled with all kind of people doing all kind of things. Who can honestly say that they've sampled even a fraction of the possibilities that are set before them? Go do something you've never done. Jump out of an airplane. Take a road trip without a map and see where you end up. Live in the moment instead of worrying about the future and the past. There IS no future or past - just the ever-now. Have the best now you can!

And this can be the hard part: if you have things that are holding you back, you may have to cut them loose. Even the best of friends can be a weight around your ankles instead of the wind beneath your wings. Get rid of everything that doesn't make you feel like a better person than you are. You may THINK you need them, but you don't - those things need you, not the other way around. Freedom can be frightening, but I think that is what you need.

And when you're born again into a whole new world, drop me a line. I'll be happy to hear about it! ( :

Answer 3

From what u said there's nothing that can changed ur mind. The way presenting ur self is like u've already considered ur decision so do what feels right bcos no one can stop from doing that. What is the use of trying 2 show u the light while ur holding a black iron belt around ur eyes? No use at all!! And by the way why would u waste ur time&energy on something that fails you so many times?

After all no body has a right to tell u what to do with ur life & believe or not whatever u do u'll answer the who created you to become u.And also suicidal is not a solution but a bit of prove of how cowardly u r 2 face challenges. Wake up and smell the rat bcoz what u thinking right now is not worth ur energy!! U could have thought of something important than that,which will make u a hero!! We are tired of people killing themselves bcoz they think that suicide is the only solution to their problems. Stop fooling ur self coz frm ur statement u don't need help from people whom belive in certain believes.Mayb ur help/answers will come frm people who are already dead.

If u have contacts with the dead then ask them and they will definately tell u if u have to die or not,especially those who committed suicide. They r the only 1'ns nowing what's going on there. But I personally belive that u need a very seriuos help and I hope u find one b4 it's 2late!!After all, life is all about choices &decisions!!

Gud luck!!

Answer 4

I'm a little confused here. On one hand you say you don't believe in God and yet you are afraid to 'wake up' to the life worse than you have now. Please explain? Also, what do you mean you've tried? You either do it or you don't. I'm bi-polar, according to my shrink anyway, so every time I hit a low I think of killing myself too, but I never tried because doesn't matter how bad I feel there is always somebody worse off than me and I can do more for them that I can do for myself, it's not a reason for living but it is the reason for not dying. Plus from you question it sounds like you not even 25 and yet you're giving up on the next 3/4 of life. Are you that enlightened that you can see so far in to the future that you are able to give a definitive answer that it will NEVER get better in the next 75 years or so. My point is, the world is empty and meaningless and it is up to you to make it what it means to you. You are the most important and beautiful person in this universe, the only question is whether you choose to fulfil your destiny or surrender.

Answer 5

I stay away from the cause of such feelings, namely family. Obviously, yours hasn't done a very good job in supporting you. You would only have obligations to your own children. Also, as I encounter people, I try to remember that they are not against me. They are too busy worried about themselves. I also try to think about how good things can be in the future. I am alone but I try to think about how great a future relationship is going to be.

You might try a little volunteer work. I deliver boxes of food that a government charity gives people in need. I do it for elderly people through the Eastern Nebraska Office of Aging. I sponsor a child in the Philippines. I send her cards and get letters from English speaking relatives of hers that show a great deal of appreciation. All of this can get my mind off of myself or if not, make me feel good about myself. Check out the Christian Children's Fund over the Internet. Oh I'm not religious either. That doesn't matter.

Maybe you could take up some kind of fun class like bridge. After all these years it seems your problems won't be solved so maybe it is best to just forget them.

Thank you for the question. I am going through a hard time myself and your question makes me remember these ideas. I wish you the very best.

Answer 6

I have felt I wanted to kill myself as well and I have been depressed for a very long period of time, but I realized suicide is not the way I wanted to go. I didn't want to just give up on life. I don't know about you about you, but I am to stubborn to give up on it no matter how depressed I get. Things in life do get better, whether or not you believe it it's true. I know it may take a long time and a lot of hard work, but you will make it through. If you don't want to keep paying someone you can try talking to family and friends about how you feel? Have you tried that yet? Think about how they will miss you!!! That was what made me feel better and I knew that I could hurt them like it would if I commited suicide.

Answer 7

Wow! 43 answers and counting...all different views about life and how to really find a meaning in life. I may not know exactly how you feel cause I have never seriously thought of committing suicide even when the events and experiences were overwhelming and insurmountable.

No matter what, I genuinely want you to abort your decision to terminate life. Believe me, until and unless we tackle the cause for the problem we can never eliminate the problem. I am not trying to give you a suggestion nor trying to sympathize but letting you know what I believe in. If you wish to talk, please do contact me. I can do a lot of listening, which we can hardly find now-a-days. You are not alone. I may not be perfect at it, but I can guarantee a faithful ear that listens.

I hate to put a counter question, hardly helps anyone. However, I would like to know what you mean by "I still feel this way".

Answer 8

Just getting born is one of the biggest long shots there is. I mean, 250,000,000 individual sperm cells heading for one ovum that may or may not be ready for them. If yes, one and only one sperm cell implants and the odds of the newly fertilized egg en-planting in the Uterus is about one in four. That is what it took to create you, uniquely you. As someone who no longer believes in a god, that also scratches out an afterlife as a delusional tool to give your life meaning. That is why this life is so precious, there is so little of it and then we die, everything is over.
I have been in situations where my life was in the balance and those around me were losing theirs at the same time as we were trying to take as many of "them" as possible. Life, even if it seems unbearable, is worth holding on to because death is so very final and we lose the opportunity to experience reality. Try this, sign up to do a tandem jump out of an airplane. You will never feel as pumped and satisfied as you will when you fling yourself out of into space and feel the rush as the Earth flys up to meet you. Once the shut opens, you will feel the jolt that means you have survived. It will give you some perspective and maybe a reason to live, to do it again.

Answer 9

I don't believe people who are or have been suicidal have "broken brains" And I also do not believe as some Psychologists believe, that a chemical imbalance in the brain is the cause of all suicidal thoughts. Sometimes Strong emotions are all that's to blame. I do think its unfortunate that some people feel they can never be happy because things do get better.

Answer 10

Suicide goes against man's instinct for survival. Those who want to commit suicide, therefore, need counseling. So what gives man (or woman) a reason to live?

80% of humanity, the religious folks, don't need to ask the meaning of life, the church tells them....the supernatural explanation. But the rest of us can't swallow religious dogma, because there's no evidence. Nobody can prove that there life after death, that people are tortured or rewarded after life or that there's invisible spirits running around.

I've come to two conclusions recently:

1. Life has no meaning
2. Life has a million meanings.

First, there's a certainty that death and annihilation awaits not only you, but the Earth in general. It's an astonomical certainty that our sun will supernova and leave the earth a burnt crisp, not to mention all the other extinction level events around the corner.

Second, the million things that give us meaning are the pleasurable experiences we can conjure up during the short period we are here on the earth, in the form of the relationships we have with our kids and other people, and the 'housekeeping' types of purposes. What i mean by that are the curing disease, ending hunger, improving literacy, reducing crime, preventing war, helping other kinds of things.

Answer 11

I don't want you to kill yourself! It makes me sad that you think this way. You must really feel empty. I keep busy and help others and it gives a reason to get up in the morning,but I am also taking medicine for depression,too. I wanted to tell you that things change,but you said it goes on and on for you. I do not know if you take anything for it,but I am gald I did after a bad bad marriage I really lost myself and then the death of my son. I also have a knowledge too that makes a difference and that is that I know this is not the REAL life ... So, you hang in there....Dont do it ok?.. You must be strong and endure even if it seems difficult. Also, I think you should tell yourself daily that you need to live it out. See how many times you can make a good difference in someone elses life. It will get your mind off your seemingly sad existence. You truly seem like a lovely person!!!