Am i damned?

Question

They say you end wear you begin in life. I am verry ambitious but no scence of derection, verry inteligent but cant realize how to do what i set out to acive, i am wise yet i have no scence of time, i am a different in every way kind of person who wont touch any beaten path yet i understand it, a huge hear broke way too many times to care, i face my fears so i fear little and death sometimes seems like peace and rest after a long hard and cold day i wish i could reach for, i am not depressed nor angry, i have seen a few councelers and they all tell me i am fine, my family has all but disowned and abused me in many ways, i dont have many freinds i could say were actualy that, no matter what good i try to do for my comunity in volenteering or just helping a neighbor they all always just hate me in the end clearly and noticably, i am overly creative and lack the ability to patent or copywright anything i make new or invent. what do i do with my life? serious answears or help only.

i am 26, white male. got so many goals, just the american dream. trying to figure things out in life, ya' know? just feel so damned at it all. everything i have priviously typed is what those who have known me for my lifetime tell me and i know this too. i want to build a log cabbin unlike anything yet done i been drafting the blueprints scince i was 9 or 10, i want to settle down, have kids and be maried and faithfull. i want to start my own buisness. everytime i try to do this- i dont know what stops it all, i dont know what happens it just ends for no explainable reason. i accepted jesus long ago, when my father had a .44 at my head drunk, pulled the trigger as he fell to the ground and missed while crying. in my life i got a little more than religion but what good dose it do if you keep feeling for jobe?

sorry bout the grammer/spelling, wasent ever good with that. i ran out of tears 8 or so years ago and the least on my mind is spelling, just as long as its understandable.

it kinda feels like purgatory from hear, i think thats a good way of saying it. i know i got a good pourpos in life, whatever it may truely be and however i find it. just stuck to wear i dont know were to go from hear. please dont misunderstand me hear, not looking for anything less than REAL SOUND ADVICE to help me figure this out.

if you honestly want to know things that may help answear this question then reveiw my privious questions and answears and you will see i mostly dont ask dumb questions and i mostly dont answear them and i wouldent bother with ither if i dident know or feel i have experience in some aspect of them. i know this sounds like some kind of goofy request but it may help, help in a real good answear is what i seek now, its what i need, something truely wise to think of or know or realize.

Answer 1

stop worrying about others and start worrying about you
if they dont like you they dont matter and dont deserve your help
do something great
for you and no one else anymore
if life hands you lemons, start whippin those bastards at ppl

Answer 2

That's rough stuff. All I can say is, you got to keep on trying. You've come this far, right? So you've got to keep on going. You may be emotionally drained. Perhaps you think that it would be better to just stop and give up. But that's the easy way out. That's not for you. Find some strength in yourself and continue your journey. As the saying goes, "Everybody's got a story that will break your heart." In other words, just when you think you've got it rough, someone else out there in the world has got it worse than you. Believe in yourself. Good luck to you!

Answer 3

This is just like reading my own journal. I believe that there is something you need to do with an unresolved issue maybe a past relationship that needs closure or family???? Only you know who or what is stopping you from putting it all in the same direction so you can proceed down your path,good luck.

Answer 4

Well to begin with, God's word says there is only one freind name Jesus. For the things of this world will fade. If u feel u are damed, you are then not living up to yor potential, I can only say that , I too felt lost with no sense of direction until I gave my life to the Lord, I became anry with God and shouted at him " why did he make me" then I turned around and gave him my life accepted Jesus in my heart, and closed myself in my room for 3 days(just meditaed on his word and prayed ) and I have been transformed since that day , which I will never forget . I will pray for u , that u come to his knowledge. God is Alive and he is the only friend I will ever need!
God's word says' come to me all who are heavy laden and I shall give thee rest!

Good luck!
Iby

Answer 5

Sometimes people are so smart that they are misunderstood. Your sense of direction should come from you and only you. Such as what you want to do and how you'll make a difference. Let me say this friend death is forever and life is enjoyable.

Answer 6

You sound like you are on your teenage years. those years where you are trying to find yourself and what you want to do. Try to be more friendly with people. If you are creative, there are a lot of careers out there that can let you do that. Youll find yourself. I cant tell you it will get easier with time, but youll learn how to do it.

Answer 7

You seem fun. Just keep your chin up. Oh and if you have time take an english class so you can learn spelling and grammer.

Answer 8

Yes you are until you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and believe that he died on the Cross for our sins

Answer 9

kid im sure u'll turn out okay