i was in prison for selling heroin?

Question

i was an addict and sold drugs to fund my habit not for profit as it was other peoples drugs i sold i am now hellping addicts through a user group i help run but i still cannot forgive myself for falling so low how do i do this

Answer 1

enter a 12 step program

Answer 2

OK now you must forgive yourself in order to truly heal, so let me tell you yesterday and every bit of the past is gone it cannot be brought back or corrected.
First off this country is barbaric, to put an addict away for using drugs is dead wrong. To get the addict true therapeutic help is right. You were not in control the drug was. Our country makes too much money off of prisoners that is why so many millions are in prison...........prison for profit the new age big business!

Move on stay in NA and other support groups and services work on you. The damage has been done and it was done to you buy using and selling and going to prison now give that guilt up too.
If you do not you will not be able to move on, we are all people and we can all be there under the right circumstances. Reach out to others that need help and make your life and self feel good.

God doesn't make junk your not junk no one is junk, you have taken a path in life that brought to hell and that same path (if you turn around and walk back out) can bring you to peace and love.

Turn around stop doing what you probably have always done, stop the stinking thinking and realize you have taken the wrong path and start a new path.
You sold heroin to those who wanted it because you were owned by it ..............it doesn't own you anymore so stop letting it by not forgiving yourself and others and move on!

Answer 3

Sometimes it is easier to forgive others than ourselves.

Start by depersonalising the problem. It is not yourself that you have the problem with it is your actions. You became addicted for a reason and it's important to understand this, the drug took control and made you do some truly bad things.

It is not you that was wrong, it was your actions. I heard a great saying that we cannot take time back, but we can fix the clock.

You have alot of karma to work off and you have already started. If you help to stop others from making the same mistakes, then it will start to help you. It is your purpose this time round, if you do not learn from this, then you'll have to go through it all over again.

Good luck.

Answer 4

How can you help others if your can't forgive yourself, you can't go through the rest of your life beating yourself up over what you did, you did the crime and served the time, you have been given a second chance so make the most of it, your not alone there are lots of people out there who have done the same as you too, you are now helping others to understand what you did to yourself and that it really wasn't worth it, you have lots to look forward to now and nothing to look back on, its the past, you have made your mistakes so make the most of your future and never go back there again, give yourself a good talking to and move on from it, help others and stop beating yourself up, good luck.

Answer 5

You could do what a friend of mine did: He was a gangster and jewel thief etc and spent many years in prison. After his release he spent five years living rough on the streets and lost so much weight he nearly died from malnutrition and the intense cold. (He slept in wet clothes and ate out of dustbins many times...

That was thirty years ago. He eventually accepted Jesus as his saviour (asked him to come into his live and repented for all the bad things he had done) and therefore got God's forgiveness. He has been a changed character for the last thirty years - so it does work. It was through his faith that he could finally forgive himself and then move on in life.

I'm not suggesting that you spend time on the streets or anything like that but if you ask God's forgiveness he will forgive you and help you to forgive yourself. It will be a huge weight off your shoulders.

I wish you well and admire you for coming away from your old life.

Good luck in the future whatever you decide. xxx

Answer 6

Forgiving yourself is the hardest thing to do, but do it you must. You must go to Jesus and ask for his help----you cannot do it alone. God is not interested in you past----he is interested in what you are doing right now, because God is the God of the eternal present. You cannot change the past or atone for it----atoning for the past is the responsibility of Jesus Christ because he died for your sins---the past. What you are doing now is an honorable work and God is taking note of it. I believe that God will lead you into a great ministry, if you allow him to. I am a prison pastor and I minister to convicted felons in Texas. I am around ordained ministers who used to be drug dealers, drug users, alcoholics and murderers. Jesus can do wonder things in a man's life if the man lets him do it. Go into conference with God and ask him to forgive you and to teach you how to forgive yourself. Continue in the great work that you are doing, read the Bible every day, and pray. You have already gained deliverance over the past----you just need to accept it. God bless you, and keep the faith.

Answer 7

Your always going to feel guilty, working with addicts is good, I hope you have the "balls" to rat out all the people who supplied you, I hope you going to go to the police and help an undercover sting. Drugs apart from causing social problems also funds al-queda. Anything you can do to help stop this your country will be proud.

Answer 8

i am sorry but i do not feel any kind of sympathy or understanding for people like you, there is no point in feeling guilty now, you knew before you got into it in the first place, that it was way wrong, and now you must suffer your own sins for the suffering you have caused to other people through your drugs, this is your punishment not prison, you didnt serve your time there you are doing it now, and i know it will be more torturous than prison. i do admire you for kicking it and devoting yourself to educating other addicts, but it is still a tad bit too late!
i know i sound really heartless but there is no point lathering you up and tying a nice bow around it, to make things better, that isnt going to happen! just keep going strong for yourself and the other people you help

Answer 9

I think sometimes we just have to accept that we're human, made mistakes and that we have learnt vital lessons.
What have you learnt from experience? You've got empathy and understanding, which I don't have. I could never help someone the way you can. And I bet you're dedicated to your cause.
BTW - My son was an addict, as is my nephew. If you're sincere, I can forgive you.

Answer 10

I was in prison for 3 years for fraud and other crimes.Its not easy to just forgive yourself.I have found some help in Councelling once a week.While confronting my past has been very dauting and draining i have started to now realise there was underlying reasons as to why i commited the crimes i did.Trust me therapy does work try it.

Answer 11

we all fall low its what we do about it that counts. you are now trying to make up for what you did by helping others. it will take time but eventually your guilty feelings will be forgotten. you know how addictive it is and im assuming you didnt at first so who ever it was who got you on it in the first place is the one who should be feeling guilty. stay off it and make something of yourself and you will then start to feel proud.