Well I really hated what I was doing because it did not match my values and the wat I wanted to be seen as a woman I felt degraded,objectified and was constantly compared to other women. At the same time I learned about the dark side yea the money is good but it comes at a price not only are the patrons creepy but many of the women have a lot of self esteem and past trauma issues. I can no longer look at strip clubs and sleazy videos the same way.
While I was dancing I traveled all over Michigan and into Canada and I had a lot of experiences the whole time sinking deepere into self loathing,addictive behaviors and losing sight of my dreams. I justified it to myself with the money but afetr a while that was no consolation for my self-worth. I stopped sometimes I miss the money but I would rather work hard two weeks for a paycheck and be respected than have tips every night but feel empty.
2006-10-26 17:00:19
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answered by NuMi 2
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...dancer?, yes,...exotic?, that would depend on the patrons you asked...(but i think i was, *smiles*)
...i did enjoy it alot,...the $$ was very nice,...most of the patrons were respectful, of course there are idiots everywhere in the world, so that's why there were bouncers very close by...
...what i found interesting were the number of grrrls that would frequent club,...they were there for a good time, and a fun group to be around...
...i learned alot from dancing, self respect, self confidence, and to be comfortable with my sexuality,...and i think the patrons really respected me for my attitude,...well, at least i think the did?...*giggles*
2006-10-27 05:53:53
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answered by tiny dancer 2
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