I feel like commiting suicide...?

Question

I'm lost...

Im doing ok in School my lowest grade is a 75 in Biology

I want to go to Princeton ....Mabey the NBA I have a feeling my life is going to lead no where I want to be

Im a 15 year old Freshman

I don't know what to do.....

Answer 1

stop pressuring yourself too much. enjoy your life as a teen. you won't ever regain those momment in life again. have fun :)

Answer 2

I'm taking this seriously, because the statistics for teenage boys committing suicide are pretty high. Has to do with hormones and self-image. I'm a mom with kids in college. When I look back and think about the best or worst times of my life, I have to categorize the teen years as absolutely the worst time. Ask any adult over 40 and they'll say the same. So No.1: You are not alone feeling like crap. No. 2: You have a choice to make: Am I going to tough this out? Believe me, you won't feel like this forever. There's a lot you can do to get your mind off how you feel. The best (and it sounds corny) is to help little kids. They're pretty helpless and it'll make you realize you have the ability to make someone feel safer or happier. That really will make you forget yourself for a while. About the great marks you are getting, well I think you don't have to worry about low marks keeping you out of Princeton until the last 2 years of high school. At least, that's what we have here in Canada. Also, sign up for a gym. Nothing makes a person so depressed as being physically run down or unhealthy. Imagine if you killed yourself just because you had low blood sugar! Well, good luck. You are the master of your destiny - so start planning!

Answer 3

Suicide is selfish. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I failed some of my classes in high school and still went on to graduate from college with a GPA above 3.5, get a Masters degree. I have held down good jobs and am raising a family. School does not define who you are and tests don’t define who you are. They don’t even really limit you in life unless you let them.

I’m 40 and have gone through some pretty dark times getting to be this old. I can tell you that from going through those dark times, I have grown to love life so much more, even when things are really tough. I have the advantage of perspective that you simply can’t have at 15. You just don’t have any perspective right now and so ending your life would be a really stupid thing to do. Life seems dark and hopeless and because this is the first time you have faced it like this you think there is no way though it. After you go through the “dark nights of the soul” a few dozen times in life, they become almost routine and you just hunker down, reach out for support and push through them when they happen. When you come out the other side, which you always will one way or the other, you are stronger, more authentic and you open up deeper levels of happiness and connection with people.

It is OK that you are feeling the way you are feeling. There is nothing wrong with it. Suicide is always an option, but consider what life you could live if you didn’t feel boxed in or weighed down with expectations from your parents, society and most importantly yourself. You are always free, just remember that.

Answer 4

You're still young and dreaming is still not over at your age.

Don't mess your head with your flaws, weaknesses and momentary troubles. They are all temporary besides not a single person is perfect.

Enjoy your life as a teenager and make sure you don't miss out on anything. Don't try too hard though.

If your lowest grade is 75, it can be 90 as long as your strong will to conquer is there.

Keep on dreaming and don't let go of the ambition. It's your fuel. Sometimes the power of "want" makes dreams come true. Above all, love yourself because if you don't nobody will.

Best advise----know exactly what you want and pursue. Don't let anything or anyone stop you.

Good luck.

Answer 5

I know it can be tough to see the light sometimes, especially when things don't seem to be going the way you want them to. I couldn't tell you that life is always going to be a walk in the park... if it was supposed to be that, it wouldn't be life! But remember this... if you don't have the bad times you couldn't ever really know and appreciate the good times! (and the good times make it all worth while) You have a purpose in this world.. What it is, you might not know for a long time to come, but you have to keep dreaming and keep trying...
Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery and today a gift, that's why it's called the present... Keep the faith take everyday as it comes and know that unanswered prayers aren't always such a bad thing! There's always a reason for everything! ALWAYS! I'll be thinking of you... I've been there many times before, but some how it always seems to be ok...

Answer 6

I don't know who you are and how your mind works, or how mature you are for your age. I'm not sure what your life situation is, if you have any friends or family.

BUT

I would suggest that you see a psychologist. If you feel like committing suicide right now, I would dial 911 immediately. I feel your pain, I've been through the same. Hell, I still go through it sometimes due to the anti-depressants I take, but let me tell you something ---

Life shifts. It changes. There will be bad days and there will be good days. You're only 15, and you have your whole life ahead of you, just like I do at 20 yrs. old. You need to realize that there's much in life left for you to experience. Don't commit suicide, or at least, not until you know that it's the right thing to do.

Yes, I said it. If you're mature enough and know what you're doing, who is anyone to tell you what to do. Although, at 15, there's still plenty of experiences you've experienced, and maybe that's why you feel this way.

I highly suggest you see this through, see a psychologist, and if you have a family, speak to them about it. If you're close to your family, talk to them. It doesn't matter if your family is your real family, and adopted family, or just your friends. Do it. If not, I would suggest going with the psychologist immediately.

See it through. Make sure you experience most of life BEFORE you make a final decision.

Answer 7

Moose;

There are a lot of great answers here, draw this conclusion, even though you feel alone, look at the number of people who are willing to reach out to you, with real concern, compassion and hope.

Life sucks when you are a teenager, I know, mine sucked too. I was bullied, felt I was ugly, believing the bullies. However, ten years removed from my high school years, at my reunion, I learned that everyone liked me. Literally more than a hundred students knew who I was, but because I went through HS with my head down, I didn't even know it.

The NBA is a longshot, regardless of your skill. So, have a fall back. Follow your dreams, and I hope you make it, but find something else that makes you happy, and pursue that as well.

Moreover, unless you are already religious, don't listen to the pessure to allow religion to consume you. True meaning comes from expanding who you are, not smothering yourself in religious dogma. If you are religious, then consult with your priest, pastor, etc. Follow your heart, not anyone else's.

Finally, discuss this with your mom or dad, whomever you are closest with. The pain you are feeling will pale in comparrison to the pain you will cause them hen they lose you, and they didn't even know you were hurting.

I know the pain you are in. I wasn't suicidal in HS. I got by because I had a few really close friends. It was this past year. I lost everything that meant anything to me; my family. There wasn't an hour that went by that I didn't think bout ending it all. however, I knew that my children would suffer greatly. I am a great dad, and my children love me very much, it got me through a lot. Know that there are people out there who love you, will love you, and will miss you.

This too shall pass.

Take care, be yourself, trust your family and friends.

Answer 8

Hey Moose:

Hang in there. Keep you friends close. Talk to a school counselor or a priest, rabbi or ? if you have one. It is hard to be 15 in this day and age. Being a teenager is hard, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will make it. And when you look back on all of this one day you will see that you developed skills in living that will serve you well all the days of your life.

Many of us have been where you are. I know the darkness, I have been there. Trust me. With a little help from a professional counselor and the support of a few good friends you will be fine. The sun will shine again. As the saying goes "it is always darkest before the dawn" and it is true. Think of yourself one day with a teenage son of your own and what you will be able to say to him to help him. And say those things to yourself now.

You say that you want to be on the NBA. If you are into sports that is good. You have learned many things from participating in sports. You have learned to keep going no matter what the hardship. Think about the positive lessons that you have learned and use them in this situation.

Peace be with you my young friend.

Answer 9

Dear Friend,

Many times depression arises from a depletion of serotonin. This is a brain chemical, and has nothing to do with the true person you are. I had this problem, and saw a Psychiatrist who put me on a medication for three months. I felt better within just a few days.

Your life is worth living. Life has a way of unfolding that is difficult to see in the earlier years.

I was a wallflower in high school, no money for college, no real direction. Little did I know that I would one day travel to India, Peru, Panama, Thailand, and see the world. Little did I know that I would meet so many amazing and loving people. Little did I know that I would hike mountains, and forests, swim oceans, and invistigate the meaning of life.

Please ask your parents or a school counselor to help you. Your life has many amazing happenings just waiting for you.

Answer 10

My dear young man, one of the reasons you feel this way is just that you are young; so now you know sometimes people feel one way then another, that is all part of life. Although my dear suicide is not the answer to anything, finding the answer is the answer. How fun it is to wake up each morning not really knowing what is going to really happen, as you wake up each morning each moment is new, you may make a new choice, you may see something new you may smell something new, best of all it is a new day for new beginnings. Gods mercies are new every day. I consider it a pleasure that God allows me to see a new day, things do not always go the way we want. So my suggestion to you is start planting what you want to receive. You can never plant a apple and get an orange tree. So start planting a little love into someones life, you say you received a 75 in biology someone may have received less help them and in helping them you help yourself etc....etc....God loves you and so do I. Things are never as bad as they seem.

Answer 11

You may be a little depressed. Some times it make you feel down and like life at a dead end street. You need a good friend that you both can talk of your dreams for your future and get excited. Also, have some short term things to do now, like a hobby, where you see some results now. Much of what you saying is a long term goal and since it not happen now you get down. Heck, I have done a model car or ship at the kitchen table and felt real good when I finished it.