I have a question for ALL gays and lesbians.?

Question

Have you accepted Jesus Christ as your Savior? If you have not, why is that? Has it anything to do with your sexual orientation? Is it because you simply do not believe or does it have to do with the way you have been treated by the majority of Christians? Please be honest and know that I am not here to offend anyone. If anyone would like to talk with me one on one please fill free to send me a message. I will not judge anyone. :)

I think that you all have misunderstood my question. I am not insinuating anything. I just know that homosexuals get treated badly and judged all the time and a lot of that is by Christians.

Answer 1

Yes. I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, but for years, I turned away from Him because I felt judged and excluded by the church because of the way that I felt inside. I did not chose to be attracted to those of my own gender. In fact I did everything in my power to reject those feelings - not only because of the church, but because of societal pressures all my life. I am happy to say that I have found my way back and my faith is stronger today than it has ever been.

However, I still have an aching empty void in my heart where I'm lacking what I should have gotten first from my earthly father and later from male peers. The affirmation and male bonding that I missed out on during my early development and throughout my life has created a huge void in my chest that I cannot seem to fill.

As a young child I just knew I felt a sadness taht I could not explain. I just wanted my father to love me - to be affectionate and to teach me things boys need to know. By the time puberty hit, the craving for that affirmation and male bonding turned sexual. I wanted to belong, but always felt I was on the outside of male society. Unable to attain the love and sense of belonging with the guys, I turned to a fantasy world where I was accepted and appreciated for who I was. That fantasy gradually became more and more sexual in nature, as the hormones of that age came into play. As the pattern progressed, I started masturbating to mental images of other boys my age.

This was the only way I knew to quiet the pain I felt from feeling excluded. This pattern continued throughout most of my life. Only recently have I come to realize that I'm not gay. The whole thing has been a f*!cked up way that my mind has dealt with the never-ending pain of rejection (real or perceived).

I still quiet the pain by masturbating and using homosexual imagery when I it gets so bad that I can't stand it. I realize that it is not the right way to deal with it, but I have no other fix. I call it a fix because it is an addiction just like a drug addiction. I fully understand the destructive impact it is having on my life, but I am powerless to combat it.

I started out saying that I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. I have. And I have tried to lay all of this at His feet and I have surrendered this to Him. However, it does not stop the pain from building up to where it is deafening and I can't stop it.

I try to fit into normal and healthy relationships with other men, but I always feel like I'm on the outside and can't get in. I feel inadequate and like I'm less than them. This feeling then makes me idolize them and the old sexualized patterns come in and I soon find myself wanting them in inappropriate ways.

No one knows any of this about me. This whole battle takes place in my mind and only those closest to me know about my secret pain.

I pray for strength and knowledge to help me see what I need to do to get through another day without giving into the temptation, but I often fail. I have prayed for Him to fill this void I feel with His love, but the void is still there.

I go to a men's group at my church to try to gain some affirmation, acceptance, and love in a richeous and healthy way, but the void remains. I've even sought help from a therapist, but the void remains.

Why won't He answer my prayers? I want to do His will. I just want the pain to stop.

Answer 2

You are not here to offend anyone but you ask a question in an offensive manor. Interesting.

I doubt if not accepting Jesus Christ has anything at all to do with sexual orientation. Perhaps they are followers of the true path, and do not believe as Christians do.

Do you realize that not only have you implied that all homosexuals are not Christians, you have also implied that anyone who is not Christian is probably a homosexual?

Answer 3

not all of us straight people have "accepted Jesus Christ" as a savior, either. There's nothing to be "saved" from. It's unnatural to pretend that everyone could or should follow one path.

Answer 4

I bet most of them simply don't believe it. Once you've studied human history and culture (among it, RELIGION), you try to find a more universal basis for your beliefs, and search for truth outside the context of one particular text or another.

Answer 5

I'm afraid that by the very nature of your question you are being judgemental. Why are gays and lesbians any different than you? Aren't we all just people doing the best we can?

FP