FTM here. I haven't done any transistion yet in any way, but I'm starting to get depressed and going in public now irritates me, because I look female still. I didn't really even know I was trans (even though I should have known) until about 6 months ago. I go to therapy and that helps... I plan to transistion this coming June. I'm scared and confused, but it's hard to be in public now and I have to go somewhere today and it's really depressing me... Is this a normal feeling about being in public? I mean, I get really ANNOYED and RAGE like. :( I'm not rageful to others, I just feel very angry about myself. and now knowing that i'm trans makes me feel so much more odd in public. I'm kind to others, no one would know I'm so angry at all. Please don't say this is a psyc issiue. I know I'm not a psycho... I cannot pass w/o hormone or surgery so that won't help to just dress like it. Nevermid then... maybe it was a dumb question.
2006-10-08 15:40:07 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Society & Culture ➔ Cultures & Groups ➔ Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender
Very intelligent question from a caring person. I have never thought about this as you have put it. This is a very real issue and I have no one good answer except....but down the rage, for it is wasteful of your precious energy. There is no reason to be mad, it is the lot you have been thrown in life, and you have the bravery (I am not so sure I have that much bravery) to do something about it. Look forward, not at today. I do know two FTM transsexuals who have completed everything, have very good lives, security, good jobs, and are very happy. Neither has looked back with sorrow. In the meantime, dress butch as hell...funny thing about the world, women are allowed to dress as they want with very few comments. Keep your head up, for there is nothing different or wrong with you...you are just you, and that is fine. I suspect that the real fear is from within, not in others. Go for your dream, it will be a hard and painful road, but you will get there. There will come a day when you look back on this with little emotion. BUT remember your feelings today, for you can help so many of those who will follow in your footsteps..be there for them knowing that no one was there for you today. That is a good thing to cling to. good luck, peace, and love.
2006-10-08 15:54:42 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
wow, I feel terrible for you. I noticed that you started off so willing to ask a question and then decided that you didn't want to. I guess you don't think that it's worth other peoples time? well, it is. I wouldnt have read it and responded if you werent worth it.
I'm not a trans, so I don't know how much I can help, but I can feel the pain and suffering in you.
I fell into a really bad depression two years ago and only got out of it about two months ago. It is hard to go through it. But something I learned is to not do it alone. I'm sure that you have a friend or family member that you can talk to. Let them know how you feel. Ask them for help.
It is very common for gay, trans and depressed people to not want to go out into the public. The best thing is to not go into the public. Take some time on your own to think, meditate and figure out how you feel. Then when u feel better, start with small steps. Go out to a friends house, or for a walk around the block.
I would suggest that you go see a counsellour or at least your doctor and tell him/her how you feel.
This will probably just take time, so take it slow, easy, and do it for you, nobody else!
"Everything will be ok in the end, if it's not ok, it's not the end"
- Tim
2006-10-08 15:56:09 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
No it isnt a dumb question. This is a big issue...I have male to female trannies,and I hear from them,the same thing!! what you are going through is NORMAL for the isue u have to deal with. Dont be hard on yourself,because what you are doing is kicking your already bruised mental knees. STOP!!! You feel odd in public because you feel that ppl can see that you are confused and hurting. No,they can't see inside your soul,and that is what you think they can do. STOP IT!!! You are going to be ok!! Once you undergo the trans,and the hormones,and live like a male, it will get easier. You are upset because you can't understand your feelings. THAT TOO IS NORMAL.!!! You can do this!!
2006-10-08 15:47:45 · answer #3 · answered by Dragonflygirl 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hey! It's great that you asked. I have that same thing happen whenever I go back and visit my folks that aren't happy about my transition. The last time I went back to my mom's I almost left before she got home and left a note saying "Home shouldn't hurt so much." Unfortunately this is a VERY long road. I know it's hard. A lot of us struggle with this, but the important thing to remember is that you're taking steps to make your life better. You're seeing a therapsit to help deal with it and planning your transition. Just keep your head high, keep moving forward, and keep reminding yourself that your life is getting better day by day. Also, you've got a community out there to reach out to. There's a lot of us transfolks in all colors of the rainbow and we're always there when you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to help get ya back on your feet after life has knocked you down.
Blessed be )O(
Sarah
2006-10-08 15:49:01 · answer #4 · answered by carora13 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Don't worry I'm the same way except Male to Female. It's because your not the person your suppose to be. I take anti anxiety medication to leave the house because for the longest time I always thought that people were looking at me funny. But you know, your a girl and it's ok for girls to wear men's clothing. I don't think you'd be harassed as much as a male would wearing womens clothing.
2006-10-08 15:50:25 · answer #5 · answered by Peaches 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Don't you ever feel like you are a nobody,no I don't know how it feels but you seem like you are a wonderful person and have a great heart.Don't let other people's stares and stupidity criticize you on who you are and what you've become,cuz you seem better than that.But god made you who you are and you shouldn't change yourself at all,he says and I quote(men who are acting or trying to be women,or women who are acting or trying to be men are going to the gates of hell)but don't let what I say stop you from being you that's just my opinion.People only judge others cuz they are not happy with themselves,be you and do what you do.Good Luck
2006-10-08 15:49:06 · answer #6 · answered by Sister Queen Mama 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I don't know that this helps, but I do have some exposure to the people and issues of being transgendered, and it is common.
I do wish to say that I really respect the courage and strength it takes for people to go thought the transition. One must be truly committed to endure and take the necessary risks (especially socially) to live on this particular path. I admire you incredibly and offer my support.
2006-10-08 17:02:45 · answer #7 · answered by Cub6265 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
6 months is not a long time to come to terms with something like this. Try being patient with yourself. Your feelings are probably more normal than you may realize now while you are going through them. I hope you are sharing them in therapy.
Sometime when we go through changes of any kind in our life the adjustment period is frustrating and angering. Try to think of it as a storm you must ride out that will not last forever. And please don't think of yourself as 'no one'. You are someone, and when you start seeing yourself that way, it may be a bit easier to endure this transitional time. Best wishes to you.
2006-10-08 15:54:41 · answer #8 · answered by dave 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i dont know its a touchy subject try asking the docs
2016-03-28 02:12:56 · answer #9 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
ok
2006-10-08 15:45:09 · answer #10 · answered by What'd You Say? 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋