i am a loner,in high school i always get bullied.Now in college, my classmates do not want to mix around with me or talk to me.During lunch hours i always eat alone.Sometimes i cry inside my heart.When i talk with someone,i always shiver or talk fast.Furthermore i am an asian and i am not smart and handsome.I wish to kill my high school classmate,but then i am scared.The only thing is to commit suicide.
2006-10-02 22:33:49 · 15 answers · asked by Timmy Boy 1 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
You may be reaching out for help, but I think that you are just posting negative emotions in a lame attempt to get some positive attention.
Grow up. Do something productive with your life.
You are an embarrassment.
2006-10-03 06:36:53 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 5⤋
When I was a young man I was tormented by my own father and I was so shy that I stopped talking for years. I was afraid of everyone. But when I examined life I realized that I liked pets more than I did people which made me stop thinking about killing myself. I dealt will loneliness all the time and it hurt very bad when I got hurt by other people's cruelty toward me and I often would think about seriously hurting a person for it. But when you said you wished to kill your classmate and then became scared, that shows that you are not a bad man, that you deep down value your own life's choices and another person's life--even when you've been very wronged and hurt. I was a racial minority in high school and it was difficult to be different from the majority of students and I had a hard time looking a lot of people in the eye. But just recognizing your own inner pain and especially telling it on this website is a positive thing because you don't want to remain miserable. Suicide is an option to anyone really, but none of us here knows what tomorrow will bring and I've had times when killing myself felt the best thing to do and planned to do it the next day when I had the means to and then circumstances completely changed with something simple falling into place and I would have a reason to keep living. I never imagined that anything would improve in my life and quit hoping so many times, yet today I am married to someone who respects my hard times and loves me just the way I am. You will not be in school much longer and when you go out into the world, your individuality will be the most important thing and all the foolishness of your classmates won't matter anymore. Life after school means being thrust to deal with the world by yourself, and you're already doing that so you are ahead of those who shun you now. They will be the ones who will later be lonely and afraid to be without all their friends and not know how to eat alone and think for themselves. Hard times are what make strong characters of men and you will make it. Good luck to you. You can email me if you wish, just click onto my name and find the link.
2006-10-03 06:04:38 · answer #2 · answered by HisChamp1 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yeah, life does suck. I'm in college too and I'm probably going to fail at least half of my classes. I didn't go for a few weeks and I'm so far behind now. I know what it's like to not have friends and it really sucks. Making friends is really ******* hard, but people are what give life meaning. I used to think that I could be happy living alone with the internet, but in reality no one can do that and be happy. Being shy makes making friends even harder. I'm shy myself and it makes life so much shittier. I haven't solved the problem myself, so I don't have a proven answer yet. I'm sure that you've been happy previously in your life though. Life for me has been a series of midiocre highs and extreme lows. I've thought about suicide, but the thing about that is, it hurts and it's ******* scary. Loneliness is a huge cause of suicide and this is due largely in part to the internet and our becoming so isolated from one another. Hope reading this helped you feel that you aren't alone.
2006-10-05 23:52:35 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
If this a genuine plea for help, then you shoud immediately seek professional help for your depression. I am sure your college has counsellors - go and speak to one before you do something stupid.
Incidentally, as an Asian, you are a member of a racial group which has an incredible ability to learn. I once taught Asians and I was amazed at the way in which they picked up knowledge. You probably just need motivating in order to succeed in college.
A far as not being handsome is concerned.... well, most of us are not gifted with film star looks, but we can all try to be pleasant in our dealings with others. And a good sense of humour can make up for physical defects. Many females like a male who make them feel good about themselves, and treats them with courtesy and respect. Your personality therefore might need a bit of working on, but it will be worth the effort.
And stop talking about wanting to 'kill your classmate' - there's already enough of that in the USA without you adding to the statistics. And, by the way, suicide is quite final.
So just make sure you go to some one who can help as soon as you can. And good luck in making something of your life.
2006-10-03 05:52:03 · answer #4 · answered by avian 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Suicide is the easy way out. Don't do it. You are smart because you are asking for help. You're also courageous. Please call the crisis line and talk to somebody on the telephone, they can give you the immediate assistance you need.
You are strong hang in there, life does suck but it can also be joyful. I used to get bullied and I am glad I did not give up because now I can laugh at those who had to pick on me when I was a youngster. I see now that they were scared. Its not about you its about them as they are actually the ones who feel insecure and small.
You actually helped me, so do me a favor and pick up the phone and call the crisis line.
2006-10-03 05:48:34 · answer #5 · answered by Jen 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Death is not the answer. There is so much more to life. You're life only sucks if you make it suck. You decide how your life is going to be. If u plan to just sit around pout and cry then your life will just flow away day to day. Do something fun sometimes. Get out and smell the roses for Gods sake. Dont cry about it man. Dont be depressed all the time. It isnt good for your health. get some friends. Live life to the fullest man!!
2006-10-03 05:41:40 · answer #6 · answered by Quin 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wow I would have never guessed that a smart kid would quit so easily.
Yes you are smart, you are in college and there are a lot of people that can't get in...
As far as the others, screw them... Do any of them pay your bills? Do anyof them help you with your assignments? Do any of them even ask you how your day was?
NO... So just forget all about them, YOU DON'T NEED THEM.
They are nothing - not important to you at all.
So why are you upset that these people who are nothing to you don't speak to you?
There is no good reason to be upset over it...
They are nothing, your family is something to you, they are the ones who mean something. They are the ones that you will be Quitting on if you choose to go.
Why quit on your own family?
:o)
Jerry
2006-10-03 06:26:12 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 3⤊ 0⤋
You are not alone! Please read this article: "Life is Worth Living - You Can Find Help!"
http://www.watchtower.org/library/g/2001/10/22/article_03.htm
It can help you much more than I can. Don't give up on life. Don't take someone else's life.
Please ignore the abusive comments people have made above. They are wrong. You have shown great courage in posting this here, and have taken the first step toward happiness - reaching out to others!
Please read the article I gave a link to. You CAN find help!
2006-10-03 06:29:49 · answer #8 · answered by Jessica 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Suicide is not the answer. U need to be strong, u have low self esteem because you where not able to find yourself in high school, but hey. newsflash, high school suck for every one. the popular kids normally have bigger problems than you. U need to have faith that what you were meant to be, the person you are meant to be can still happen if u make it. U have to make a choice, u have to choose to be successful, to be happy with who u r and the rest will fall into place. Always remember there are people in this world glad that you are here whether they say it or not
2006-10-03 06:01:58 · answer #9 · answered by Doc M 3 · 2⤊ 1⤋
people would love to give you advice, shaking hands with inferior ones is called harmony and friendship in ethical terms, just live with your depression and take no ones help,or advice
2006-10-03 05:39:13 · answer #10 · answered by cannystonehenry 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋