I have been trough some ruff moments in life. I would never blame anyone for the mistakes I've made. It has been nothing but difficult times since i have been young. I have been treated differently. Chose to be someone that Im not and finally relized it after 26 years of trying to be someone else. What do I do? People sometimes treat me like im suppose to be this certain person or put alot in to putting up with me that when Im not what they want they walk away. My luck is bad as far as my love life and family life is concerned. I am constanly being set up by life. What do I do? How can I grab hold of my true self? Forgetting that I may not be exepted by lots. I really have missed up my life while being someone that the world made seem easy to be. Someone that we are told we're supposed to be. How can I shut these doors when there are so many to shut? Can any body relate to being an outcast someone that people use for conversation and debate.
2006-10-02 02:50:08 · 4 answers · asked by lovely 1 in Society & Culture ➔ Cultures & Groups ➔ Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender
It's like I go through life smiling and doing the "right" things, and if someone gets a tiny bit close to me and might find out "the truth," I shut them out. I shut people out before they can even decide they want to get close, more often than not.
I'm too used to having been an outcast for some things I couldn't help when I was a kid (poor, JW, good in school, living on land that was part of a county scandal, people from third grade on saying I was gay, etc.) that it's as if I automatically assume people who don't even know me can see those things...and I kind of make myself an outcast. There are always people who like me, but they're usually outcasts too. There's a sense that if they're not an outcast, but some kind of "big person on campus," they must be about to pull a trick on me or use me or something. Seriously. And why? Coz that happened in the past when I would not pay enough attention to realize I was not seen as an equal, and I'd just want it sooooo bad, I'd believe stupid things, not use common sense and accept.me. for.me. So that's where more of the "rebel" attitude comes from, feeling like I have to shun certain people before they "set me up" and shun me. It's kind of self-centered and immature to think everyone is going to victimize me. I try not to have that old outlook on life. I neither want to wear the stamp on my forehead "victim" nor "outcast."
Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with being a lone wolf...except I don't want to be. I'm a really social person when I'm not getting rejected or thinking I'm about to be. I think I always was too optimistic maybe and then I get depressed and eventually angry and hurt when I find my optimism was apparently far too high, I cannot be liked by the people I like. Or have them admit to it in public, anyway. You don't know how many times people will be so close with me and then step aside and talk like I'm just an acquaintance or they hardly know me if another person of their own kind enters the picture. That's not exactly confidence building either. I'm not ugly, I'm not mean (well, here I am, in a way, eh?), I like to work, I like to study, I like to help and have fun...why do certain attributes (class, for instance) dictate whether or not a "good" person wants to be associated with you?
I'm sorry I haven't given any advice, but I bet there's something buried within that could be of use. I've whined a bit and provided some clues to how not to act, I bet. :)
Just be you and I guess the others who don't accept you...some are losers, some are good people who just lose out. But YOU lose out if you do not be true to yourself.
2006-10-02 03:14:01 · answer #1 · answered by *babydoll* 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
This life is a try for us to show God how we are able to fare with what he has given us. very like the myth of the ten abilities given by skill of Jesus. some human beings have plenty and a few human beings have next to no longer something yet interior the top what we did with what we had could be the priority. i will't extremely clarify why some human beings are greater blessed (or cursed) than others. on each and every occasion i think of of the problems I generally adventure in this life i'm in simple terms made to recollect that there have been people who lived centuries in the past who had it a procedures worse (no electricity, no internet, no cable television, and so on). i think of they might have gladly traded places with you or me and despite issues we could desire to be experiencing in our lives. i might desire to indicate which you study the e book of job interior the Bible. This replace into the story of a humble guy who had each and every thing taken remote from him and yet his faith in God in no way wavered.
2016-12-12 19:00:44 · answer #2 · answered by niang 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
When you learn to accept and love who you are, you'll find there's many who will do the same. There are always going to bigots, but hay, who would want those morons for friends anyway.
Love,
Tammi Dee
2006-10-02 03:19:26 · answer #3 · answered by tammidee10 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I think you need to start loving yourself, and then take it from there
2006-10-02 02:53:37 · answer #4 · answered by Danielle 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋