I RESENT my parents for NOT ABORTING ME. Why DONT moms ABORT their DAMAGED FETUS's??

Question

I had to overcome much in life because neither of my parents are genetically fit to have kids. My mother is 5' even while my dad is 5'7". Both are pretty ugly. They should have been sterilized. They are both philistines. Now I'm a 5'4" 21 year NYU college student who has never had a girlfriend and am forced to supress any sexual urge I might have. I asked approximately 18 girls out throughout my life and have been turned down every time due to my height. My parents both have I.Q.'s of peanuts and they were never able to support me financially or emotionally throughout my life. Now I'm an emotional AND financial cripple. Things WILL NOT get better for me as every day gets worse.

Why did my parents not listen to the Dr. who told them that I was gonna be a small baby and that it probably would be in my best interest not to live - to be aborted? I'm thankful that he tried. Everyday, all I think about is suicide and death and how peaceful an eternal rest (nonexistence) would be.

Im an agnostic so I dont believe in an afterlife at all. I take comfort in the thought of the nothingness of death - as if it were a permanent dreamless sleep. Does anyone know any Euthanasia clinics around here in the North East U.S.A.? Im not thankful at all that Im alive. Everyday has been just one big fight. I wish I could just slip into nonexistence.

Answer 1

how could you think such a thing!
abortion is MURDER

Answer 2

First I must say that after reading your entry, I think you are an ignorant fool. Maybe it is the pitiful outlook on life that makes you so unattractive. My son has Down Syndrome. Even with this "real" disability, he manages to bring a smile to someones life every day. You attend college? Not everyone even comes close to being able to do that! If you want to attract someone then mature a little bit, stop blaming your parents for everything that is wrong with your life and take the challenge of making the best of your life! There are soldiers all over the world right now that are dying so that you have the choices that you do.

Grow up!

Answer 3

i hear ya, my friend. i felt the same way last weak. although im physically satisfied with what i am. and have had some gf's. but my friend its just a phase., every person has somehting to bring them happiness. we cant all be brad pit, but what do u enjoy? it has to be something, like movies, video games. resaraunts, sports. fill ur life with those things to fill the void. i like nature, and travelling. and philosophy although im still 19. what gets me through life is knowing that if i get a good job. ill have financial independence so that i could do the things that i want. btw the thing that makes me depressed is that my nationality is constantly being killed in the ME and people out their look at me as the "enemy". but buddy the world is a fvcked up place, u should learn to love ur parents, they are human, and wanted to show love to someone, that's u. be more forgiving. i hope this helps. don't give up my friend. i know ur probably just feeling depressed. it happens to the best of us. and trust me getting girls is not that big a deal, just have confidence in urself. get a good job, be a nice guy, with acceptance for ur strengths and weaknesses. and treat a girl good, and u'll have to keep em away with a stick. if not o well there's more to life. trust me

Answer 4

Wow. Your question is pretty intense.
It seems you have a negative attitude towards your situation (understandable). You could try approaching your life from the point of view of what you have or are able to enjoy of life.
On the other side I know a lot of short people (I live in Costa Rica and we are short people), and 5'4'' doesn´t seem so bad at least here. Maybe you should try moving to a country where your heigth is normal.
Anyway, you didn´t ask what I´m answering... and I don´t have an answer to your question.

Answer 5

Well buddy, I hate to tell you, but there is absolutely a heaven and a hell; whether you believe in it or not. While I do not have all the answers, I do know that everything happens for a reason. If you commit suicide, it is a sin; and you will go to hell. I do not wish that upon anyone. Maybe you should seek Jesus. You obviously have some desire to live if you go to college. Otherwise, why would you even bother furthering your education? Just keep the flame burning, and keep your head held high. You will see that things will turn out in your favor eventually. God loves you my friend.

Answer 6

im very sorry you feel that way, i hope you can change your views. im only 5ft4 height doesn't matter neither do looks, take a good look around at other people they aren't all movie stars. you know i think the reason you have been unsuccessful with a date after asking 18 girls is because of your poor attitude toward life. why would anyone want to date or evan talk to some one that wants to end there life,what would the other person have to look forward to? maybe if you learn to like yourself then others would feel more comfortable liking you for who you are. good luck and im here if you wanna talk.

Answer 7

Well at least you can spell, unlike other people here, sometimes life is not all about finding a partner.
You will realize as you get older that if your are a bright person you will be able to advance in your career, whilst others may not be able to acheive minimum wage.
Everything in this world happens for a reason, your's is yet to come, just live life as it comes and take every day as a reason to be alive.

Answer 8

I think shorter guys are sexy... I find it intriguing. My guess is the girls were turned off by your bitter attitude.

I also ride horses and I struggle with not being short. A 5'4 tall guy who isn't fat can be a jockey while the rest of us can only watch.

Please get some help for your depression. You're viewing the world in the worse possible light. You should be grateful you were born, you're healthy, and you're smart (not many people in the US can make it through NYU).

Answer 9

you should be really grateful to be alive and have a chance at this life. Your parents did exactly what they were supposed to do. It is not their fault that you are short. You know, just because you asked 18 girls out and they said no it does not mean to give up hope. But you do look at life really negative and that is not good. You are going to college. Wow, who could ask for more. You need to trust in God and things will get better for you!

Answer 10

You are INCREDIBLY SELFISH! You want to end your life because its not going to well. Get the feck over it you have no way of knowning if it will get worse or better. It will only get worse if you dont even try to make a difference. Your parents are probably very happy that they could even have a child and probably did the best they could, and would be crushed if you commited suicide. You just need to buck up and start to try to make a difference.

Answer 11

I know that things seem dark. I'm not going to sugarcoat it for you. Things have been rough for you. The first thing I have to tell you is DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. Killing yourself is a sad and weak way out. You need to be strong, and take things day by day. You're parents love you for who you are no matter what you look like, and that's why they didn't abort you. Suicide to me is the most selfish thing someone can do in their life. Do you know any midgets? Do you know people who have no legs, no arms, who've had their faces burned in fires and severely disfigured, people who were diagnosed with cancer at birth and will never know what color their hair is because they've been on chemo for their entire life? Do you know people who have had nothing, who live on the streets begging for food, a place to stay, people who have nobody to go to, no friends, no family? Think about them. They have it so much worse than you do, but somehow, they manage to find the bright side of life. You might be short, you might have never had a girlfriend, but you are fully capable of fixing your life, unlike those I have listed above. I'm sure the armless man would gladly trade his armless body for your fully capable one. I know things are rough, but there is always a way out. ALWAYS. If you want to fix things, you need to see a psychologist, walk out in the sunshine a little bit, and gain back your confidence. I know a boy who is my age and is only 4'11". He's had girlfriends. He's got friends. You know why? Because he's accepted the fact that no, he's not going to get much taller, and he's going to make the best of it. He laughs at himself, he's confident. If someone were to call him short, he'd reply with, "Yeah, I'm short, and I love it." He doesn't care what other people think. And as for those other girls who have turned you down, screw them. If they wont date you because your short, then that's their sad, sorry problem. They only care about what's on the outside, and that ridiculous. When you find someone who will love you because you are a great person, then you will realize how ridiculous those other girls are. Never give up, and if you feel like losing it, think about those people I've told you about, and how much better chances you have at life than they do. I support you fully, and I hope for all the best for you. Message if you need to talk, talking is so healthy. Good luck!!!