Just gone through another bout of uncontrollable emotion?

Question

after many years of denial, i've come to the conclusion that i suffer from some form of depression where i can be fine one minute low the next and extatic the next, i know i should go and get help but admitting it to yourself and someone close is one thing but admitting it to the rest of the world is another, I've isolated myself for so many years not going out just sat in front of this computer not really knowing what's going on with myself confusion is part and parcel of not knowing whats going on inside of me but right now i'm tired and need to change.

Answer 1

PLEASE go seek a therapist. I have been where you are, and it can become more difficult to change the longer you wait and do nothing. You will become too comfortable in that home safety zone. I've been in therapy for three years now for the same type of symptoms. It's tough, and I won't pretend I haven't had ups and downs and periods of regression. It's necessary!! Meds might be necessary at first too. And don't balk at the suggestion of meds because of any associated stigma. Meds are the only way I could get to a point of enough stability for the cognitive behavioral therapy to be of any benefit. Good luck to you!

BTW: Also ignore the unnecessary comments and chastising by people on this forum who choose to be more focused on 'rules' monitoring than the obvious emotional pain of a human being who is reaching out for help.

Answer 2

Congratulations! Seriously. You have arrived at the point in your life where you will be able to make a change for the better. Realizing that you have an issue that you need to change is the hardest part of any battle that has to do with self imporvment. Depression isn't a horrible thing and it's certainly not something to be ashamed or or something to be afraid to talk about. Nearly every person on the planet, if they live long enough, will go through a bout of Depression. The fact that you are admitting to yourself that you are depressed and need to change will make the road to recovery that much easier to walk.

I have been through it myself and although I knew I was depressed I did not seek out help. I sunk further and further inside myself until my friendships and my marriage were in jeaopardy. Thankfully, I did seek out help before I made some really life changing desicions and now I am a happy and healthier person.

My advise is to first talk to your physician and ask about appropriate anti-depressants and then seek out some form of counceling. Depending on how well you know yourself, you might only need a little or you might need a lot. I am very self analytical, so i just needed to learn some good coping mechanisms, but everyone is different.

Just don't let it stop here.....follow through with your decision to change and make it happen. Being successful in that, will help to elevate your mood and feelings of self worth!

Answer 3

Well, you mentioned denial, depression, alternating mood swings, and confusion. Do you suspect that it's possible to "know" what's going on inside" of yourself by thinking about what might be going on?

You have just mentioned it to the small world that this answers reaches, and unless you have not noticed, this includes many countries around the world.

Need to change from what to what? I would suggest that you get some paper and a pencil, and some time and begin listing all the things you dislike about yourself presently.

Then list all the things you wish that you were or doing.

Then take a look at the first list, and ask yourself how you feel about the things listed? It should make you sad, mad, and perhaps frustrated. Now ask yourself what you get from experiencing being sad, mad, and frustrated? When you can answer this question, you will likely discover the reason you have been living like you have.

Peace

Answer 4

I'm not a doctor, of course, but what you're describing sounds a lot like bi-polar disorder, also sometimes called "manic-depressive" disorder. There is NO need to feel ashamed or embarassed about this condition: it's largely biochemical, and you have no control over it. That's why it needs to be addressed by a professional who can prescribe an effective course of treatment.

I take meds daily for a biochemical imbalance that causes severe depression if not treated. At first, I was embarassed and angry, but then it occurred to me -- if I had to take medication for diabetes, would I feel this way? Not if it meant saving my life and giving me a better quality of living. Psychotropic meds are the same way, except that they give me quality of life instead of quantity.

You are NOT in this alone, and there are others who understand and will support you. Please see a doctor ASAP, so that you can enjoy life again.

Answer 5

Some people have reactions like this to synthetic chemicals such as cleaning products, personal care products, and fragrances (which are derived from petroleum, imagine wearing gasoline/petrol all day long). Two researchers, Claudia Miller and Nicholas Ashford, have suggested a model where these chemicals act as stimulants. Too much and you go up, then the levels go down and you crash, sort of like a sugar high. The crash can happen quickly too.

Most of these chemicals are toxic and can cause asthma, obesity, and other sorts of problems. Some people's bodies have problems breaking them down, either because of basic genetics or chemical injury. A lot of the chemicals are neurotoxins, which mean that they act on the nervous system. So you breathe in the toxins, they get into your brain, your body can't get them out quickly enough and they muck about with whatever they run into in the brain. This includes seizures, emotions, depression, whatever.

MSG (monosodium glutamate) and aspartame are just like two naturally-occuring neurotransmitters which help neurons to fire. If you consume too much of them, it's way too easy for the neurons to fire. Pay attention to your diet and maybe keep a food diary to help spot trends. It's possible that your highs are caused by MSG or your lows by food intolerances.

There's a lot of misinformation on the net about this, especially ones who want to make emotional reactions the cause rather than a symptom -- Big Pharm really doesn't like the word going out that, egads, synthetic chemicals (including pharmeuticals) can cause myriad health problems -- so be careful if you go looking. Best term to search for is "Chemical Injury."

Best of luck and all that in getting this sorted out. Hang in there.

Answer 6

Be the "wiseguy" that you are and visit your Dr.
All kidding aside, I feel for you as I suffer from depression too.
I hope you find peace of mind knowing your not alone.
I have depression and anxiety so just taking the steps to see a Dr. is a real challege for me.
Best wishes your way.

Answer 7

You should rely your thoughts and fears to your GP and ask for a referral to a Psychiatrist, they will ask you some tough questions and possible suggest some tough treatment regimes, medication, therapy etc. It is worth it if you feel you want help and it could just save your life.
Don't fall into the trap of diagnosing yourself, it's a dangerous game, leave it to the professionals to help you find the right path to wellness and fulfillment.

Answer 8

dont fret 'bout it, everyone has upsn downs its as an old mate used to say "part of being british, n growin' up", its called life.
some days are good, n everythings rosey, n the next its ****, n you think whats it all for, is it worth the aggro.....
course it is, you've been given a life, dont wastte it seeing "professionals" they aint, take it from me, their just like you n me, they have the same ****, its the way you deal with it that counts.....
live a little, n think ****-it its my life, enjoy!

Answer 9

U r troubled my friend. Just relax. Stop expecting for others and urself as well. Be cool and seek a professional advice.....enjoy the life dude.... dont waste it. We have just got it once... u dont know whats next...
so enjoy !!

Answer 10

It's called bi-polar.

I have known many people with that illness and it s treatable. Just go to a phycologist or your family physician.