I hate myself...........?

Question

I seriously do. I am sad all the time. I can't bear to put on a happy face anymore when the truth is I'm dying inside in a way. I know people have worse problems then me but I feel terrible. My mom and I always fight. Some girls are really mean to me at school. I am doing badly in English. My boyfriend started doing drugs agian and he doesn't even care how I feel about it. We go for a long time with out talking. ( we live in different but close towns). I'm sick of having my heart torn out just to happen agian. I have four sisters and am constantly compared to them all the time. Im sick of it. I hate my body too. I want the old me back the one who used to be strong and independant.What do I do?

thanks for all the answers and kind words

Answer 1

hey this teen hot line will help you better than every answer here.
1-800-448-3000

Answer 2

It's really great that you could come here and write this out. It means that your realize that you need some help. That's the first step to getting better. I've been through all, and more of what you've been through. The ONLY reason that I've made it this far in life is because through all of it, I trusted God. He's always been my friend and he's always been there for me. I didn't always like the things that I had to go through, in fact at times I just wanted to scream and make everyone and everything just disapear. But it's not the answer. I promise. Trust and lean on God.
There are also a few things you can do to lift your spirits up, like chill out in your room and play your favorite CD a couple times. Start a journal, and whenever those hard times hit, just write it out and and let yourself have that good cry. It also helps to find a true friend that you can trust to confide in. Nothings better than having a great friend who is supportive and loving. You should also get into a good youth group, it will definetly give you spiritual support.
Hope your day turns out great, I'm praying for you!

Answer 3

GET COUNSELING IMMEDIATELY!!! Talk to your Guidance Counselor at school. You need another adult to help you sort out your feelings and find a solution that works best for you. Or another idea is to try a teen hot line or even the YMCA. Sometimes it's hard to relate to older folks but try to keep in mind that they too have been through some rough times and understand better than you think. I know you really care about your boyfriend, but sometimes we have to let people go when they pull down our spirits. Your boyfriend needs help right now and so do you. You have to take care of yourself first. You sound like a smart girl. You are smart, courageous and wonderful for just admitting that things are very wrong. Please, please step out a little more and get an adult experienced in dealing with teen aged crises to help.

I really wish you the very best. Spoken from a once very depressed teenager.

Answer 4

Honey I know exactly how you feel. You just have to ignore what everyone else does and says and live for yourself. As far as hating your body...I had a good body before I got pregnant and now I went from a size 4 to a 8/9 - I have stretch marks and flab on my belly and I hate the way that I look. You need to find someone who really cares enough to take your feelings into consideration as far as the drug issue is concerned. He's probably so into drugs that nothing else matters to him not even himself. I used to be strong and independant too and then I had my son and it made me feel helpless. All I can say is that you will eventually settle into your life again and everything will be okay. Talk to a counselor or therapist. They will help you out even if its just someone to talk to a couple times and then you quit. I did and it really helped. Good luck!

Answer 5

First of all.. breathe. Take some time out of your day to talk to God. If you do not believe, then speak with someone close to you. Honestly, you need to see a doctor. A guidance counselor, an adult, a therapist, or even a friend are great examples of people you could talk to about this. You definitely need help and support. I had a pretty toughlife, but I got through by God. Good luck to you and my prayers are with you.

Answer 6

I don't think you really hate yourself. I believe you are tremendously overwhelmed by negative people and negative situations. You've lost yourself in the midst of all this turmoil. Is it possible to get away and spend a few days (or weeks) with a loving family member? You need a positive influence in your life because you can't handle all this drama on your own. Find someone safe to help you with this problem. It seems like you're holding on by your fingernails, but don't let go. Please don't give up. I pray that God will give you wisdom, guidance, direction, protection, peace and a newfound sense of joy.

Answer 7

Honey you really need to talk to your parents about depression. It's not uncommon in teenage girls, but it can be serious if left untreated. Sit them down and tell them how you feel. If you're not comfortable doing that, write a letter to them. Or tell another adult that you're comfortable with and can confide in. You need to get some help before you get to the bottom of that hole and can't see a way out anymore. I was in your shoes as a teenager and again as a young adult. I got the help I needed and now I feel like the old me again. There is hope, and there is help. If you need to talk you can e-mail me, I'll help as much as I can. Good luck sweetie, and don't be afraid to talk to someone.

Answer 8

im going to assume you are a teen jackie. the truth is what doesnt kill you makes you stronger! you will obviously grow up to be a very strong individual! dont do anything stupid like suicide! its a long term solution to a short term problem! eventually you will grow up and not care so much about what other people say and do, and you can live your life how ever you see fit! when you have a problem with someone, kill them with kindness! i swear it works! it puts you in control and really throws them off guard! then you can walk away and laugh the whole thing off when they arent looking! hang in there.

Answer 9

i}dump your boyfriend that will take a load off. actually talk to your mom instead of arguing i no it sounds like a full house thing to say but it will work try to *** to an agreement. Take your time in English, i totally suck in Eng. but I take my time and listen to the answers that the kids have when we go over it and i'm in honors [oh yeah]. Look over the girls because your more important than you think, who are they at the end of the day. wear clothes that you like and flaunt what you got. For further details contact me.

Answer 10

First, you need to dump your boyfriend if he is doing drugs that means that he doesn't care about you. I know that might be the hardest thing in hte world to do but you need to do it. Ignore the girls, they are probally jelous of you. Your mom and you hopefully will patch things up. Talk to your friends they can help you get through this life throws you things and you need to take them as them come. I hope you feel better.

Answer 11

What you're feeling is normal. Most teens your age (assuming you're a young teen) go through the same things that you are going through. They may be all smiles when you see them at school, but at home in their rooms they may be crying themselves to sleep at night.
If you feel that you are so depressed that you just can not go on any longer you need to talk to someone. A friend, a parent, aunt, cousin.... anyone, just talk to someone.