what do i do?

Question

so tonight, was the first time i actually cut myself, although, i did it on the back of my forearm.
i guess the cause was, that i feel unimportant.
im in love with a girl, who promised me 3 times in 1 day, that on tuesday (today) i would get to see her, well at about 8pm i found out she would rather go ahng out with a bunch of football players at her friends house, instead of keeping a promise to me, who she claims to love.
i just dont know what to do, i dont want to move on because i have all these high hopes for each other, and she does as well.
i just wish i knew how to learn how to trust people, and its not that i dont trust her, i just dont trust football players, especially with all the stories linking jocks, and rape, that we hear in the news, i guess i just fear for her. and i guess we just dont see eye to eye with promises. me, i always keep my word, no matter what it takes.
she always has an excuse, to break a promise.
im so lost, ive lost the will to live.

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Answer 1

you are cutting yourself to feel physical pain to cover your emotional pain. the only thing you can do is let her go and dont cut yourself, if you feel the need to do it you need to call someone and talk or go to your parents. you might not think so but parents can be more helpful than you think

Answer 2

Suicide is never the answer. You need to get a grip on life. First of all, this girl has proved she is untrustworthy. Why are you hanging on? There are plenty of other girls who would love only you and keep their promises to you. That's the kind of girl you want to spend the rest of your life with, and have children with, and live a happy life. But it ain't gonna happen if you do away with yourself. Find someone who will make you happy. They're out there, believe me. From what you've told me, this girl is not worth your taking your precious life. She's not even worth the time of day, if you want my honest opinion. I know you're in pain, dear. But it will pass -- trust me! I've been there and done that. It's not the end of the world -- it can be a whole new beginning!

Answer 3

If she can't keep her promises what is it you love so much about her. You need to do some thinking with your head and not your heart this time. Emotions will play you the wrong way.

You haven't lost the will to live. You are letting your emotions hit bottom with out thinking it thru. If you have a relationship then it's a two way street and she is not holding up her end of the bargain.

Not worth dying over. Find someone new

Answer 4

Look here first you know its going to be rough hon but because i care ok you never cut on yourself over noone ,that is so wrong and if you tell her it may spook her away ,I think you have alot of jealously ,and dont want to amitt it .im a jealous person really bad ,but im not going to cut myself over it .ok now you and her need to talk serious about this and come to a comfortable agreement and if then she is dishonest ,you have a problem you cant change people to be who you wish them to be no matter how hard you try .and if she loves you why would she go hang with other guys ,if she wanted to go why didnt she take you with her .ask her these questions .please dont cut ever again all you are doing is scaring your body ,and possible scare her away for real .not a good way to start a relationship .dont cut !!!!

Answer 5

I can empathize with your pain and it sucks to be in your position, especially when you don't see any hope; however, cuttings not the answer - you're the only one who really knows you're doing it and in the long run it won't be the solution. This girl isn't worth the blood you're spilling for her. Try doing something different tonight and in the future don't make plans with this girl even if she initiates it since she will probably break them if she feels something better comes along. If you find other things to do (without this girl) you might find the "one" that you're supposed to be with.

Answer 6

Stay strong , ussually when your down there is always something to make it worse somehow. Let go of this emotion. You know in your heart that she loves you and she does. Do something you have passion for and when she calls don't be bitter or angry with her. If you are ment to be you will be . Unless you hurt yourself. Have Faith! She probably still a teenage girl , who likes to have fun , but in the end she will want to rest , then she'll call you . Let her have hers. Have yours too! And tommorow you can forgive her after punishing her ofcourse, but not speaking to her. it will be good.

Answer 7

It sounds like she is messing with you emotions and it would be best to perhaps find someone that doesn't break promises. She is definitely not worth cutting yourself for.

Answer 8

F*ck her!!!!!! You should always love yourself more than you love some chick. SHE ISN'T WORTH IT!!!!!! You're cutting yourself while she's out partying? Not cool. I don't know you, but I know you can do better than her. Get your mind off of her. Hang out with some friends or family.

Answer 9

dont cut ur self fist n if she broke the promise then her loss u r probly a great guy to worry about her n if she does not come to then forget about her

Answer 10

dont let it get to you, trust is a big thing in a relationship, you need to sit her down and talk to her, tell her what you notice, and what you think needs to be done, tell her you dont like what she does. just dont seem like a bad guy, be nice about it all, dont point your finger at her.