my mother was very ill when i was a child. i was the oldest kid and only girl, and my father was building up a business, so taking care of my mom and the other kids halted that one time in your life, about between ages 10 - 14 whereby you are building up self esteem. as a result of growing up too fast, i did not know that i wasn't forming my self esteem. later on, in my adulthood, i saw that too many people in my life were making me unhappy with their addictions to alcohol, drugs, etc. they were causing what is called "drama" to happen in my life. they seemed to be attracted to me like flies are to sh*t. i then had too many complications in my life, and i wasn't able to see that i myself was important. i got rid of a husband that disrespected me and deliberately hurt my feelings first. then i was alone and writing my journal when i realized that by so doing, i had reached a pinnacle of self love and self respect. by my getting him out of my life, consciously, i then saw how simple it was to put what i will refer to as "leeches" (of my heart, of my love) out of my life, to rid myself of them by ignoring them and having nothing to do with them.
it's felt like a breath of fresh air, in fact, numerous of them, over the past 10 years, having ridded myself of the burdons of other people's demons and problems. i need to live for me first. then my family whom i love comes next. but if i did not come to know that mental abuse (husband's) was a result of the period of time whereby i had not developed self respect (it wasn't my parents' fault that mom got sick and that things were the way they turned out to be, but it is the truth anyways, and i do not blame them at all), and that my allowing him to abuse me to the point of tears and disruption to function with clarity and vision into myself, was turning my life into a nightmare, so it simply had to change.
i hope none of you go through years of mental anguish in order to see that you yourself are worth being loved and cherished for what you are, what you do, how you live, how you treat others, for your heart and for your love. but you might not, and then if you do not, or worse, CANNOT, see yourself as one of value and carry on your life as though you are worth nothing, you will get nothing but problems and a good kick in the fanny by users and abusers.
it's high time that you yourself take your life into your own hands and change whatever part you want to change of it. but remember, you need not trample on the rights of others to have their own modicum of happiness just for you to do whatever it is that you wish to do, so you should change your life in such a way that you consider others.
may you attain the goals you seek and may you love yourself and respect yourself for attaining them and for your personal growth. sorry my grammar is bad tonight, i am very tired.
2006-09-15 19:07:50
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answered by Louiegirl_Chicago 5
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People who set goals and reach them create new goals. Life is full of challenges and the satisfaction of accomplishing them is great. I finished college at the age of 20. It was tough and I gave up a lot. It felt great when I accomplished my goal. I am still proud of it many years later. I have had other similar accomplishments such as designing and building my ideal home and then had to give it up. The accomplishment was great, but the loss was very hard. I learned a lot from the experience though. It sucked, but it made me who I am today. It makes me appreciate what I have and I know that if I set my mind to something I can accomplish it no matter what. That is a great feeling to have. Not everyone is as determined to put their head down and work hard at something. If it is something you want and you know what you will lose in the process and you are okay with it, then keep at it and that satisfaction will be wonderful. Just make sure to share it with someone that understands what you did to accomplish it.
I continue to have goals and struggle all the time...If you are more specific with the changes you want to make I might be of better help to you.
2006-09-16 02:03:10
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answered by skinnynene 2
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