Uhm...this is bad =[ it seems like my life is falling apart?

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Uhm, so recently I've started doing things that I know isn't good, and that I should definately stop doing. .I'm thirteen. I smoke both cigarettes and weed. and I'm a binge drinker. I've always been a pretty good person, but I don't know.. lately I've been getting violent. My idols are Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. [[ columbine shooters ]] My grades are past the point of puking. It's really weird. Two days ago, my friends and I ditched school to smoke weed and got caught on our way back. I dont know what to do, it just seems like Im incapable of making the right choices.. =\

Answer 1

In all of this mess, you have inevitably been assigned some sort of counselor or social worker or someone who is responsible for (a) listening when you try to explain what help you need, and (b) seeing that you get it. Take this seriously. There's no sense wasting your youth on such nonsense, when there are people drawing perfectly respectable salaries who are charged by law with providing help to you to avoid just such nonsense.

Of course you know it's nonsense. You said up there in the first line you "know isn't good," but the demons seem to have taken control.

Demons? It's a vocabulary. It is a short-hand way to explain that there are in fact forces which feed on people being miserable. Power-trippers, certainly, including politicians, and certain lower forms of "entertainment" count on people being miserable as the way they get to use them.

The reason you are incapable of making the right choices is that you have been the victim of programming to make the wrong choices. Programming, I mean it. The social engineers even use that term. The people I call control freaks. This is not paranoid conspiracy theory; this is recognition of a certain personality type that gravitates toward petty power jobs. They are especially virulent in government service.

But take heart: you still have a mind, apparently, in spite of best efforts to sell you on burning it to mush. Start making choices about what you actually like to feel like, not what is "cool," like those disgusting beer bongs. You know that is a seriously SICK habit, don't you. Of course you do.

You cannot go on pretending you don't need serious help. You must act before it is someone else making all the decisions about what sort of help that will be -- like a judge, for example, if it's not already too late for that.

Answer 2

You need to make several changes. Tell your school counselor what is going on, then talk to your parents. You need detox and serious mental health treatment.

If your counselor and parents do not take you serious enough to get you some help, don't give up. Try telling someone at the hospital ER that you are becoming violent, even homicidal. If that does not work, call children services in your county. You are young,you can still recover from the mistakes you have made, but the longer you keep making them the longer it will take you to recover.

Last, but certainly not least, seek spiritual advice from a leader in a mainstream Christian church.

It may be lonely at first, but separate yourself from the friends who smoke and drink with you. There is a quote that says "If you keep doing what you have always done, then you will get the results you have gotten. You are in a self-destructive lifestyle, and you must make the first move to change that lifestyle.

Answer 3

You need to find an adult that you can trust and ask for help. It might not be your parents that can help you, but there must be a counsellor at school or some teacher that you can talk to. You'll get in trouble for the drinking and smoking, but later you'll be glad that you didn't let it go further than this. If you're under 18, they won't put you in jail, they'll try to help you. It will probably be rough, but it will keep you from making any bigger mistakes.
You've said it yourself: it's bad and your life is falling apart. The friends that you smoke and drink with won't approve of you turning yourself in, but this isn't about them, it's about you. You don't have to turn anyone in except yourself. Maybe your friends are handling it better than you are, but for you, it is a bad situation. You took a good first step by asking for help here, where no one knows who you are, but you have to take the next step and ask someone for help in person.
Good luck.
Visit teenswithproblems.org if you need more than this.

Answer 4

F**K man, some people insist on the meanist of responses.

i shouldn't worry, no wait WORRY. . .

I used to do all that kinda s**t, and eventually lost all my friends, and years and years of counseling and medication later, I'm just sorta starting to get my head together.

However I still have no "proper" life, it sucks being a loser:
It's like cool for 20 minutes or something, and then it's just as poo as everyone makes out.

Nevertheless sounds like your sorta doing ok coz like your realizing problems nice and early!

Actually there's loads of funky ways to get attention, and trust me, most of time you really don't want it anyway.

Don't give yourself too hard a time, people'll see and think that's the way you like it and before long you'll be typecast as a masochist!!

erm . . . . . .
Now is that pronounced the same as uhm . . .
Taking into account dialect?

Answer 5

Why are you telling this to us instead of your parents? Seems like there-in lies problem 1. You have a lousy relationship with your parents. 2. You are trying to get the attention they might have given you in ways that are shocking. You are only doing it for attention. 3. Now you are bragging about it so you can look "cool" to your "buddies" that are sitting there with you. 4. If you really are doing this stuff, you are in for a miserable life unless you start taking some responsibility for it soon because 5. you are a spoiled brat who thinks she is special and deserving of special attention!

Answer 6

Just ditch your friends and find another idols. Columbine shooters will eternally be seen as losers.... Stop making efforts to be one.
And get away of your current friends, find new ones.

Answer 7

UHM.... SO IN YOUR BIO, YOU "CLAIM" TO BE 17 AND NOT 13! UHM..... SO WHICH IS IT? ARE YOU 13 OR 17? OR UHM, ARE YOU JUST A BIG FAT LIAR? UHM, WHICH IS IT? I THINK I'LL GO WITH LIAR! STAY OUT OF THIS FORUM IF THIS IS WHAT YOU THINK IT'S FOR. MORON!

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Answer 8

try heroin or crack, those should turn your life right around!

there is a time to smoke and drink. it's called college, when your old enough to deal with the emotional responibiltys required for this.

at 13 your still just a kid, enjoy it. you've your whole adult life to be a waster.

Answer 9

Time to talk to someone. Sounds like you are going through a change that will metamorph into who you will be. Get someone professional that you trust to talk to and help you with what's going on.

Answer 10

Kill yourself before you seriously hurt somebody. If those Columbine idiots are your idols, you have some serious problems. I hope your parents love you, because with that outlook on life, nobody else will.