tell me how you feel and what do you think about myself?

Question

My life has been twisted into a different persona wanting me to humble myself from their economic and individual hypocritical standpoints. All they do is hold their hands out wanting to receive and when you need help and you ask you beg help me please. They walk past you and forget what you did for them, and who you were. You are not a memory in their selfish animated exisistance of what I call a hard and cold reality. My memories of a poor excuse for a child-hood have blinded me, unknowingly knowing how to possess the characteristics to make choices to fit in the web of the system I stand alone. I sit in the dark and hold out my hand, but I receive nothing. I sit alone in the darkness giving what I don’t have and I have what I don’t want. My wants are caused from a greed of sacrificing what i had, my hate grows because you care not.
I want to be free from all of the memories that haunt me while I sit alone waiting for you to come and save me from myself. I am afraid and mean nobody any harm although I am translated to being something that I am not. I am starting to feel comfortable alone my body is starting to harden form all of these years from sitting in the shadows. What do I do? Who am I? I am ready to come out of the shadows will you help me?

Answer 1

this question is a good material for a monologue or a declamation....anyway..a good display of ur ability to use the english language....what can i tell u?...just get out there and enjoy the heat and brightness of the sun, forget those people around you, do not make ur existence about how they see or feel about you...just enjoy life as it is, no one can make u happy but yourself......

Answer 2

Well, you do know how to express yourself. Memories fade when we get on a new and different track in life wherein we do not have time or a desire to dwell on the crap inflicted upon us, especially as children. When we miss so much early on we become hungry for the love and attention we did not get when we were coming up. We also become overly generous and get taken advantage of because we are known to have a generous nature - and, of course, a good soul. (side bar: We are going to heaven or wherever the rewards come in the hereafter because we are good deed doers) Looking at the other questions you have asked I don't think you are as alone and lonely as you say. That said, it is very possible to have a lot of friends and acquaintences and be isolated simply because we are not in contact with someone who "gets" us.
Do not let that body of yours harden unless you are working out. You are an original and it is time you came out of the shadows. Now, one...two....three...

Answer 3

this answer is definitely not going to satisfy you, but I've just got to say: hang in there, sweety. You are not alone, thousands of teenagers feel the way you do, and I promise that these feelings will pass as soon as you get a chance to spread your wings, to have the agency that comes with adulthood, to see a little bit farther than your own heart. In fact - try to save what you;ve written here. I'll be damned if you don't come across it in a couple of years and have a good laugh at it.

Answer 4

Stop spending so much time on these questions. Get up and do something. As long as you are bound by such questions, you will never be free. Get up and get going! Where? I don't know, but you need to get out of "there!"