am i a weird freak?

Question

Ive been a loner since gr. 4 now i am in gr. 10 supposed to be in gr. 12. Ive never made friends maybe its cause im shy. I like being lonely its a great feeling. Nobody understands me anyways... I LOVE the night i rather stay awake all night and sleep in the morning the morning really eritates me and the night is beautiful and the moon. For some reason i am obsessed with Graves Moonlight and Night i always dream about going to the cemetary and sitting on a grave looking up at the stary sky and the moon... is this weird? School is real hard i never make friends (already mentioned) and when i enter a class everybody stares at me like im a freak... it makes me unconfertable and i have no self confidence due to years of harassment and hurt from kids at school. I have suffered from alot of depression.

Answer 1

Maybe you are different than the other kids at school. And sometimes that might seem like a bad thing but its really not. You are definitely not a weird freak. Why would you want to go with the crowd and be just another clone when you can be your awesome unique self? If you ask me all the clones at school are the real weird freaks. (“You laugh because I‘m different. I laugh because you‘re all the same.”).

The only problem it sounds like you really have is being shy and having no self confidence- both of which cause depression. You should try going to counseling. It sounds dumb but if you find the right counselor it can really make a difference. I’ve always been really shy and also got picked on a lot. For a long time I had no friends. I went to counseling and it helped me with my shyness. Since then I have gotten a lot better- I now have 3 very close friends. I also graduated from school and am now looking for a job.

As for you liking the night life and cemeteries- there is nothing wrong with that. It sounds cool to me. I also really like night. I love staring at the stars and the moon and am always happy to see a shooting star. Cemeteries are way cool too. I’ve always really liked them. Me and my friends often chill in this really pretty cemetery.

Answer 2

I wouldn't say you're a weird freak. Unusual. Yes. In all honesty though, anything different than 'usual' really isn't such a bad way to go. As far as the friend thing goes, you say you love being alone etc etc. I don't buy that based on the other things you said in your post and just my own personal beliefs. I think it's great you're presenting a content additude about it though. Kinda. I think you're confused. I think you wish things were different, but would never let anyone know that. I think you'd like to have a friend to walk around in a graveyard with. Shy? There's no way around that. You could go to a doctor and have him put you on some happy pill, but then that really wouldn't be 'you' now would it? You're going to have to put some effort into not being 'as shy'. Put yourself out there. Feels uncomfortable? It's gotta' happen sooner or later. The only way you're going to get around these social anxieties is to 'will' yourself past them. It won't be easy, at all. The longer you wait, the harder it will be though. I don't think there's anything wrong with being ok with who you are, but I wouldn't lay it on so thick if I were you. That probably sounds $hitty of me. I'm just trying to offer some friendly advice.

Answer 3

no you are not a freak, maybe you do not belong to the town. There are people who like almost the same things that you are into. I like the night life. Yes it is hard to make friends in school when you are different. It does not mean that you are a freak. It is a good thing to be different from other people. Don't let others put you down because you are great person.

Answer 4

Sounds like you're very lonely. You probably have some abuse in your past or present that you may be in denial about the seriousness of, and you need to admit your hurt, to yourself.

Then you need to express your hurt to those who've hurt you, because it's become pent up inside of you creating great anger.

You might not feel mad, because it's bottled up, but because of it you feel guilty, afraid you deserve to be alone, aren't worthy of love, are a bad person. But you're not.

First your have to protect yourself from people who hurt you and don't care about you. Then you need to forgive those who've hurt you by admitting it's partly your fault, either through mistakes or inaction you didn't protect yourself. And then forgive yourself, by realizing you do feel bad and only a good person would feel bad if they hurt someone.

Then you need to begin to take risks, talk to people, be more open, honest and expressive, even if you're rejected, let it out.

The most important thing is to find and follow your passions, not other people's expectations, figure out what it is you want to do and go for it with all your effort. That is where happiness lies.

Answer 5

Wow. We are a lot a like. You're not a weird freak, because then that would make me a weird freak, and I don't think I'm a freak. So, no you're not a freak, if people avoid you, or stare, it's just because you're different than them and, if they make fun of you and harass you it's only because they have low self-esteem, and need to hurt others to make themselves feel better. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with you.

If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me.

Answer 6

I'm.a nightrider too I love staying up at night to remember that I can get the most important things to do the next day so your not a freak or weird

Answer 7

well just try a club that you might like to join or a poettry club so you can share with ppl how you feel. mabey you like a sport go out for the team. or if you see someone that you think that would be a good friend say hi to them and ask them if they want to have lunch with you. and go to www.coasttocoasam.com they talk about a lot of cool stuff. they have a radio show at 10:00 every night. check it out. you will enjoy it a lot~! good luck!

Answer 8

Well, i'm not a psychologist, but since ur question is d same as mine a few years ago, i'll try 2 answer it. i'm in xactly same situation as urs word 2 word. its like i have a power 2 succeed in life bcos i'm not dependent on ne1 in life, i dont need ne1! n so do u. ur confidence will return when u've achieved something u'll really feel proud of. till then its a tough struggle but have faith. if ppl consider u freak, doesnt matter, ppl dont know wat u really r, but some day they'll really see d real u, which is not a freak, but a powerful n strong person.

Answer 9

From reading what you have written, my first question is what do you look like? I'm guessing by your avatar that you probably wear the traditional goth uniform. Do you look like you blend in or do you look odd. Could that be why people are staring at you when you walk in? Isn't that why people make themselves look different, so people can stare at them? I dont' know if you are a freak or not. How can I?

Answer 10

There is nothing wrong with loving solitude if you do not suffer from loneliness. Yes, the night is beautiful. If you are unhappy, you should seek help from those that love you; if not, then you are who you are; you love what you love. Consider those that make fun of you: are their lives full of beauty? Who are they that they feel able to criticize you? Pay them no mind.