2006-09-06 06:44:58 · 4 answers · asked by chigaimasu 2 in Society & Culture ➔ Other - Society & Culture
Well...I am *now*.
I haven't always been like this though. :) I did give it a good solid run for 30 years, busting my hump since I was *ten* years old, during my parent's divorce, trying to get myself a life, get the education, get the job in spite of being born and raised in a dirt poor, abusive family out in the damn boonies...
And well...I did get out from under the family. I was the first one in my family to earn my Bachelor's Degree.
Not that it did me any good. :( Because I have a mood disorder or three, the local social service system's idea of treatment involves drugging me into submission and putting a shackle (yes, a rubber band around the wrist is a *shackle* dang it) around me to make a "good little drone" out of me....
I've tried, ok? For three years I co-managed a drop-in center for mental health clients that *I largely got off the ground MYSELF*. And it took a peeved CEO and her petty, back-stabbing paid-to-snoop *stooges* to stop that one, using office politics to make an *jackass* of me when my meds were crapping out at the *same* time and *nobody* would help. I've nearly been published online *twice* only to have my friend's connections fold up at the *last* minute. And don't even talk to me about my advisors in college *lying* to me for nearly four years straight trapping me in a dead-end major until I was nearly broke and *in debt* to my eyeballs with student loans. Point is, every time I try and *succeed*, it seems like *reality* has to send me someone who is out to screw me over....
I turned 40 last month. After 30 years of trying and working and fighting a system that *insists* I die in the gutter like so much roadkill *in utter spite* of my own best efforts....I give up, ok?
Do I have problems? Yes? Could I get on the right meds, lose some weight and fix the mood disorder within months? Oh hell yes. But...
Society has no place for me. Period. I have no future because *your society*, that is the society that Elected Pinky and the Brain to the Highest Office In the Land, *that* society....they say so. I've fought like hell to have a future, only to have everyone else say no....
So fine. I don't have a future. I guess you'll have to bury me then, won't you? ;)
2006-09-06 07:04:05 · answer #1 · answered by Bradley P 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Well, at 84, I don't feel that I have much of a future. Why, just common sense. Smile
2006-09-06 13:51:03 · answer #2 · answered by old_woman_84 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yes, in that I've had brochures for long term care sitting on my dining room table for two months, and I STILL haven't made a choice.
2006-09-06 14:07:51 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
i must admit i have been lazy. i should be putting money away for my retirement and i haven't
2006-09-06 13:47:16 · answer #4 · answered by SAChicky 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋