Chronic exhaustion and death?

Question

I have an illness because of the following reasons.
1) Systematic family battles and problems with fighting against my mother using spanking as punishment (which I strongly oppose today)
2) Going to 5-7 different schools because of bullying from children and teachers
3) Systematic abuse in 3 different residential schools
4) Systematic and severe sleep deprivation
5) Repeated close encounters with death
6) Several heart attacks
7) Sereve and relentless legal battles with a woman I know
8) Problems with my safety systematically
and miscallanous other issues

I have grey hairs in facial hair, pubic hair and other parts may be possible.
I get a body temperature reading down to as low 34.5*C (94.1*F) when I sleep. (about 0.7*C l(1.5*F) lower each year because I am still restisting problems). People call me lazy because I tackle a lot of them sitting at a computer.
I get periods of weakness and exhausted feeling type laboured breathing.

What is my medical condition called?

Please tell me how long it will be before I die. I do not want to die in pain, but I refuse treatment for this condition. I do not want a heart attack, just fall asleep.

How will it be?

What is my illness called?

PS - I want to die

Answer 1

First of all you definitely need to see a psychologist to help you deal with your depression and past trauma. It is also very possible that the therapist will recommend you see a psychiatrist to deal with any chemically related anxiety and/or depression. Secondly you need to see a doctor about the physical conditions. Often times when people are under stress and especially for long periods of time it will affect them physically. Stress breaks down your immune system. It also causes sleep irregularities and not sleeping well enough or too much will also affect your mental and physical health. Do not give up on getting treated.

Answer 2

First of all you need to see a dr.
but i feel there is a lot of self pity here.
1.if you have grey hair now, then been bullied was a long time ago (get over it)
2.families will always argue, you must move on.
3.5-7 schools!!!! what were you doing? were u lookin for trouble?
4.alot of ppl have sleeping problems including me.im lucky if i get 4-5 hours sleep a night.
5.are you trying to commit sucidide,
6.as you get older and if you are overweight, drink/smoke to much,
then yes you are at risk of getting a heartattack.
7.i ve been married 20 years and we are always in a battle.
8.and what do you mean with problems with yout safety?
it sounds as if you need to grow up, get councelling it will help.
proper excercise will help your breathing,
improve your diet(we can all improve that),
dont sit at the computer so long, wash up, do gardening, take a walk,do something active.

Answer 3

I am rather concerned that you would rather die than correct what is happening in your life. Unfortunately, none of us here on this site can do much about that unless they know you well enough.

In terms of wanting to know what your medical condition is, that would be up to a doctor to diagnose. It's generally a bad idea for laymen to make medical diagnoses in person, let alone over the Internet. I highly recommend that you see a doctor (they should have them in Yellowknife) to get proper information. If you are not wanting to be treated, don't let that deter you from seeing a doctor just to get a diagnosis. You don't have to accept treatment unless territorial law says otherwise.

I'll agree with spiderspell that consulting with a psychologist is a good idea. You can even go see one with the mentality of wanting to die and simply look at the best way to prepare for the eventuality. It sounds like you are looking for a peaceful way to go. Psychologists are experts at help one confront their mortality.

However, if you do go along with this advice, I would ask that you keep an open mind about issues of death and life. It might be that a better solution exists, and that's what I believe most of us want, a solution that works. I wish you well.

Answer 4

systematic family battles, spanking as punishment..who's the parent? Just take charge man! 5-7 different schools because of bullying from children and TEACHERS? There has to be a problem your not looking at. Health issues, legal issues...your creating these yourself through resentment, anger, self-pity, etc. Medical condtion? More likely spiritual deprevation!

Answer 5

It sounds like you are really messed up.
Maybe a case of General Anxiety Disorder . . .maybe just a case of the skervies?

How many drugs did you take when you were a kid? Do you drink? Is there a support network in your life, ie family?
If this woman is causing you so much trife, stop talking to her, or more likely, leave her alone - she doesn't want anything to do with you!

And eat better food heart attack man! How much fruit is in your fridge? When was the last time you ate fish, excercised, ate a vitamin?

Get out of your house.

Most importantly, STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF!

Answer 6

Sounds like you've been through just about everything. I believe you need to be examined by a Dr. to rule out anything that could be chemically wrong. You also need to talk with a specialist because you deserve to be relieved of some of the mental burdens you've been carrying around with you all this time.
You deserve to live better than this. You are worth it!!
You don't want to die. If a child came to you with these problems you would take that child somewhere to get help. Well looks like the child in you is doing everything in it's power to ask you for help. Now it's up to you to get that help. Only you can do it.
I wish you well.

Answer 7

First off you need to see a medical doctor and tell him what you just posted. Sounds to me like you are depressed or have some type of post traumatic stress disorder. I think your brain is doing this to your body and there is no disease other than something psycological. Your statement about dying sums it up.

Answer 8

If you are grey headed then you must be too old to be living with mother to even be getting spankings.

Move to a warmer climate and let the past go, any horrible things that have happend to you are in the past it is time to get out and enjoy life.

You seem to have a severe depression and anxiety disorder. See a doctor!

Answer 9

If you have been told that you are dying, and you truly don't want treatment, then contact a hospice facility in your area. They can help you with all of your questions.

I don't think any of us here can help you, seeing that we can never know all the details about you. This is a very hard question to answer. My heart goes out to you.

Answer 10

It sounds like you are not taking very good care of yourself. You need to see a psychiatrist to find out what your condition is called. Since you indicate you are suicidal, you need to report to your nearest emergency room immediately.