I am starting to hate myself?

Question

used to be a bubbly, happy gal, till my parents forced me to take up my post graduate studies. My intnetion after my degree was to work but they forced me to do my post graduate studies after my degree.I forced myself into it and since i didn't have the stability of mind and was not prepared to take the exam, i just attempted the papers and in one month time the results will be out.I can't sleep at night, i have palpitations, i vommit,i consume sleeping pills, i physcially abuse myself and i get shortness of breath mostly every day because i'm so worried abt the results.what if i didnt get thru and hw m i gng to face my family? cant even mix with people and i sechlude myself from everyone.I've put on weight and I have pain in my breast and uterus each time i get stressed up thinking abt the results.I am unemployed now and i developed this "fear" in me that i m not worth it since i have low self esteeem after sitting for tht exam. PLease help.PLease tell whats happeningt t o me?

Answer 1

Sweetheart, I think you need to tell your parents that forcing you to do what they want isn't making you happy. They should allow you to make your own mistakes. Try to reason with them... compromise. Ask them if they will be ok with the idea if you take a part-time job, maybe on the weekends or once a week, just to keep you sane. And I think that you really need to see someone. I think you need professional guidance. But you need to tell your parents how you feel... first!!

Answer 2

You are living your life for your parents and not you. You have to follow a career path that you have a passion for, not because it makes your parents proud. If your studies are making you physically ill, or causing you this much stress for god's sake stop. See a counselor, read the book What Color is Your Parachute. Do whatever it takes to find out what is going to make you happy and fulfilled in life. If your parents are good parents all they would want for you is to be happy and secure in life. You will find financial security, and true fulfillment in another career, but first you have to do some soul searching and find out what it is that you're interested in and good at. Then and only then can you find true happiness.

Answer 3

oh I'm so sorry don't hate yourself their is nothing wrong with you.You feel their is and your telling your body to think it.DONT it will make you do things you never thought you could do.Now think of it this way.Your in a hotel and as your get on the 1st floor the wall is white.But as your go to the 2nd you see that it is a different color.The 3rd has alot of people and is very popular.But the 4th it is very poor and no1 wants to be on it.Oh the 5th has everything food alot of people very very popular and fanisy.See it changes after the years past you change you like you and you dont but you end up likeing yourself jsut like the start.Thta happened to me when I was 14 years old.Everything changed.I wasnt the best at baskeball as I once was.I oculdnt remember how to shoot lay-up's and I really was good.I lost my 3 best friends.Be/c I told then I hated when the followed me around.And I kelp lieing witch was bad.And I did alot of bad things.Like poenign my present 4 christimas.And was always gone and I never wanted to be by my family now my dad died and I never really got to spend time with him and i feel bad but i also know that I will never raise my children as my parents did.And I will always help my children and help them out when times r tough dont hate your self b/e telling you to hate your self is like telling urself to stop beathing and we dont want that.Well good-luck and I hope you dont hate your self.Be/ inside we all no your a great person and dont try doing the most stuipest thing be/c u wont be forgived and u wont be yourself jsut be your self dont be some1 your not i hated that as a kid
so good luck
thanks

Answer 4

Stop doing what ever it is that is making you so unhappy!!!!! I would be out of post graduate school in a New York Minute! Who's life is it anyway??????/ Not theirs. So they will be mad at you. It wouldn't bother me in any way shape of form. Either they get over it or not, why should that concern you if its your life that you want so dearly to live? Get out and go live your life just as you want to. If your parants disown you over a stupid education then that ought to tell you how superficial the love is for you in the first place. If my love with my parants was soley balanced on an education then its not very stable to start with so who cares if they are mad at you. Life starts with your happiness and not the pleasing of anothers wishes. you are only going through this life once this time around and you better make sure you are happy or you will commit suicide! Get out of there and start living life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 5

First of all you need to put yourself before your family, you need to tell them you love them very much, but your well being is more important right now or they wont even have anyone to be proud of if you keep going at this rate. I hope that you will be smart enough to get your self to a Dr. of any sort. Save yourself, your family will be better off with having you, then having you have some degree.

Answer 6

you dont need to hate your self girl!its probably a new time for you.But if you want to surpass this condission,then thing possitive.Put a nice Band in your pc,like Kansas or Verbe.Or see a goo movie.Comedy for sure.With good will and the force of will all the problems dissapear just like that!have a nice life.

Answer 7

Hey,
Please calm yourself. Anything you do,should be for you,not your family. Stop stressing,it is,what it is(your exam). Whatever the results,use it as a starting point,to reach YOUR goals. You have many choices,choose what you can handle and what makes YOU happy.
And talk to a professional. I've dealt with depression,on and off my whole life,starting as a teenager. Talking to someone that's neutral,often helps. Peace,Y.

Answer 8

keep your hopes up
find someone else to hate here are a few Ryan Seacrest , Pres. Bush , John Kerry , Backstreet Boys , Tom Cruise , the bears
my point is life is to short and filled with people to hate more than yourself

Answer 9

whats up expensive, I actual have considered ur solutions before & u discovered very enthusiastic & lively. i'll't say the precise rationalization for ur unhappiness (of route) yet at times its only a component after we in basic terms have a tendency to sense this kind, at times because of overwork, at times unhappiness over something or guilt or only a feeling of misunderstanding. i'll inform you about myself, i have self assurance it very extremely frequently & for me being a really gentle man or woman & entering into the floor of factors has been a weak aspect. many situations i have wondering the position am I most ideal upto, whats my purpose & all form of emotions almost spoil me. The unsurity, the doubt, the confusion...all of it wrecks havok in my concepts. yet I do exactly one difficulty, positioned on my earphones, & pay interest to........Jazzy B ;)

Answer 10

go to bed and tomorrow is a new day ,if you wake up in the morning thank god for the gift of life and forget the exam and dont worry about it enjoy life and with the grace of god all will be well