Why am I so full of hatred?

Question

I mean Lots of hate, for everything and everyone I see there is some type of hatred for even the littlest thing. On the outside I'm probably one of the nicest people you know always wiling to go the extra mile. But on the inside I really ******* hate every word you say and every action you make. When I sit and think logically about all the stuff that makes me angry. I wonder if something is wrong with me. Can it? I hate the world...most of the time...this sucks. I am going to take a nap

Didn't know people answered this quick, I think It's only fair to give more info.

I lead a normal life, I go to partys, weddings,work a full time job,have a dog and a crappy little apartment. I make fairly good money. I'm not Brad Pitt by a long shot but I'm also not a troll. I really have nothing to complain about besides the crap that runs through my head.

Answer 1

Your probably bored with your job and stuck in a rut. You probably have a mild form of depression, maybe even anxiety. You probably need to do something a little more exciting with your life and or your job. But if you are not going to do anything about it then just stay at home and become a crotchy old man.

Answer 2

I think you should, just as an experiment, print out this link http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Lake/3888/love.html
and read it daily and try to live by it. try doing this maybe for a week and see what happens; i.e. do you feel better; not as full of hate? also, know that we were put on this earth to help each other. you will feel better if you get your mind off of yourself and into the plight of others. maybe try doing some volunteer work at a children's hospital. as you get older, you will have friends and relatives passaway and other things in your life. a good spiritual base and good way to live your life, as i've suggested from the link, will help you thru these events and also help you to become more sympathetic toward your fellow human being. i think it's good that you are questioning yourself; you see a red flag. you have taken the first step toward happiness. if you hate then that means you probably have a deep hurt. what were your parents and your childhood like? try addressing all of that with a counselor perhaps.

also, it could be that you have a very high IQ and/or you are not challenged at your job or with the people around you. you make your own reality/life is what you make it. perhaps you need to find a new city. also be sure to check your health. there are a lot of good natural 'feel good' herbs on the market. try serodyn and amoryn fpr example. i found those recently on the net..

good luck to you.

Answer 3

Why are you so full of hatred?Probably because you want to be! There is a good chance that you hate yourself, what you do, what you think. And the easy way out is to lay blame on circunstances and the "others".

Try to look at things you think you have done wrong, especially where you offended or hurt someone else. Then try to make up for it. Say: "I'm sorry!"

It may win you a friend, but it definitely will give you a start to feel better about yourself and "the world".

Hate as the absence of compassion. Try some! You may get to like it.

Answer 4

Fortuitious's answer sounds like a good source. I would also add to that.....I am not sure what you are experiencing; my understanding for the word 'hate' is a blend of fear and anger stimulated in a person from the actions of a person, a 'dangerous' person. You are not very specific in your description for who you hate and that leads me to hypothesize that it is a general condition of your mind. Anger is an expression of powerlessness and fear, you know. WHY the powerful do what they do. All people are powerful in the field of emotional stimulus, mostly because their actions are incomprehesible and sometimes because they are exactly comprehensible, love.

In addition to Fortuitious's answer, I shall say excersize is a good way to work off that extra stimulation. A good sweat in a saunna would not hurt either and take extra vitamine C.

Answer 5

It is my experience that nothing exists in this universe except in relation to its opposite. The opposite of hate might be love. Many of us experience phases when it is easier to hate than to love. But hate might just be love that is not being expressed. Hate may also be repressed love. Repressed love can have at least two causes: other people or yourself.

If you can search honestly for what you love or for what brings out love in you, hate can be converted. But you cannot search for it artificially. If you search too hard you can make the hate worse. Searching for love requires enormous courage and enormous integrity.

You should not sacrifice yourself arbitrarily. You cannot love and serve people indiscriminately. You have to be judicious. Love is not naive. It is the most all-embracing power in the world. Courage is the strong side of love. Being nice is not necessarily love at all. It depends.

If you cannot find the love you need and if you cannot express it truthfully, then you must start to dismantle the hate so that it does not overtake everything. Dismantle it carefully and if necessary, a little bit at a time.

In any case, it is worth remembering that love and hate are two sides of one coin. They exist together. Don't deny your hate or your disgust. Admit it truthfully and accurately. Love cannot be far from either one. When love appears don't deny it either or it will quickly turn to hate. It is great when true love is reciprocated. But if is not reciprocated don't let it turn to hate. Learn the art of loving and keep going. A lot of humility is required to love. Hate is a mask for arrogance. It is one of the severest forms of egotism.

But it is quite difficult to love truthfully. It is difficult to be a leader in the expression of love. It's a great challenge, so nobody should ever give up the effort. There is also a great deal to learn from hate. There are many things worthy of hating. But it is not a state that should be sustained for too long. Hate destroys perspective. It distorts everything.

Another helpful aid in the expression of love is a term that is becoming increasingly well-known in many fields. It can be expressed in different words but I like the term "effortless effort". There are many states of being that cannot be forced. They have to be found naturally. Love is one of those states. Lessening rancor is another one.

B. Lyons

Answer 6

Hate is what your MIND allows you to acknowledge. In reality, the emotional MIND-level energy that is being repressed by your MIND is actually rage... on the Yang, or male energy nature of the MIND, and the intensity of this is a mirroring of the same intensity of grief on the Yin, or female energy nature of the MIND. It is the intensity of the grief or rage that your MIND prevents you from experiencing due to fear of this level of intensity. Your MIND vents the energy generated by repressing either rage or grief by converting it to hate, and then projecting this upon people, places, and things outside yourself.

The only thing "wrong" with you is that your MIND holds a deeply repressed fear that is being stimulated by something or someone in your life. Since the "trigger" that is stimulating this fear is very subtle MIND-level energy, it is very difficult to discover this trigger since your MIND automatically denies awareness of it to you.

To begin searching for the source of your hate, it will be necessary to begin to step backward in memory, trying to recall any painful memory of your past, and intentionally grieving for that experience. Cry a little or a lot, the crying is practicing for the grief that will eventually be encountered. When you are able to grieve very deeply, you will have given your MIND "permission" to expose more painful memories, and more grief, etc.

The alternative is to seek counseling and talk about what your hate and what you think about it, and this will take many years.... and you will only be able to go as deep as the fear of your counselor will allow [based on your MINDs empathic reading of the counselor's fears]. The decision depends upon whether or not you are tired of what you describe. Peace

Answer 7

Option 1:
Step 1.) Figure out what you really hate.
Step 2.) Work out your problem.

Option 2:
Step 1.) Get psychological help.
Step 2.) Stay in a reputable mental facility until you work out your problems.

Option 3:
Step 1.) Stop going to church.
Step 2.) Listen to some tree hugging liberals until you head towards a moderate center.

Answer 8

You cannot stay like this forever. #1 It's not good for your health and #2 Is going to weight you down.
You need to get help and soon before this evolves into something harmful to you or the people around you.
When dealing with people try to find something you like about them, hopefully that will help you hate them less.

Answer 9

You are depressed, I think... At least this is how I felt when I was in a depression. I was willing to do stuff for people and so on, but really hated everyone and everything and just wanted to be left alone...

Answer 10

First of all, you sound extremely passive agressive which is never good for you. No wonder you hate everything, you keep all of your true feelings and opinions inside! Try to be more assertive. This will help you to love yourself more and therefore, love others as well.