Has anyone else been forced to find truth since their only happiness comes at the expenses of others?

Question

-i feel love is the only important thing in the universe
-happiness for me for many years was the thought of killing my parents however and generally hurting others
-i know i sound sick, but i truly felt that love was just a trick to use to get what you want and i needed to find out if there was more
-things that make others happy often makes me feel physical pain in my head.................
- just asking.........

Answer 1

No.

Answer 2

Happiness always comes at the expense of others. What you want they want too so whoever gets it is happy and whoever doesn't get it feels left out.

The truth is people are attracted to one another. That attraction can form relationships including love.

Happiness is always about pleasure. It is wrong that your pleasure comes from killing people.

You should ask yourself why.

My guess is that you have a strong deep seated feeling of independence and autonomy. Those are good qualities until they get in your way. Don't let them keep you captive. The thing you can most control in life is yourself. Do that.

Love is an aquired taste. Like sex it is painful at first but ultimately rewarding. Give it a chance. You will learn to rely on it. You can't control it but you can rely on it.

Answer 3

your view, while understandable due to your experiences, is incorrect. perhaps counseling would be helpful. and check out esoteric versions of buddhism and taoism. happiness has nothing to do with others, but is rather, an automatic state that exists when higher vibrational levels of consciousness are accessed. the key to changing perspective is to be detoxified and experiencing a shift in consciousness. these can be facilitated through meditation, energy work, etc. consciousness must be vibrationally lifted. check out http://www.sahajayoga.com you may be able to experience the vibrational level and benefits offered by the site. i hope so, since the "upliftment" thereby provided will be very helpful. also read *the complete idiot's guide to toltec wisdom* so you'll understand how an "uncontrolled" mind will automatically lead you to unhelpful thought processes,which carry low vibrational levels, and what to do about it. best of luck! ;-)