I know committing suicide is not a good thing to do, but my mind can't take away the idea of doing it?

Question

Hello People, I feel so down and depressed lately, I am having so much pressure.I am not doing well at work, my family keeps pressuring me about taking over the family business which has been passed from generation to generation for almost 40 years, I don't even know what I should do for my life and my future, And having a L.D relationship with a guy from different country, I moved back to my home town was my mom's order, I am in Taiwan and bf is in Canada and Mom is keeping telling me to stop contact him, try to let me marry to other guy and take over the family business, my family does not support me being with my bf because of different background, and my mom has been having hard time with my dad, they fight all the time. They've been fighting for 25 years. My father is a very stubburn dad! none of my family can stand!~~ Myself I get more pressure from surroundind I can't over come my problems and there're so many probelms to deal. I find myself so hard to stay alive

Answer 1

So sorry Life is a huge struggle. Ive felt that way before but my current husband cheered up my world. Avoid relatives who just make you miserable. It isnt even worth it. I dont want to see the Xhusband. I avoid him except twice a year on grandbabies birthdays. Pray for help and try going to church and talk to your friends about these things to help relieve the pressure

Answer 2

i'll have to say, because i struggle with severe depression, that you are going to have to sit down and make a plan.

first, how much do you love this guy? is he the "one"? you're going to have to decide that if he is, you've still got to live in one place or the other. decide which it will be.

depending on how much your family really loves you, if you decide that this man is worth so much to you that you'd be willing to give up everything for him, maybe they'll accept your decision. parents sometimes can't help but to seem to think that they know more about you and your life than you do! don't forget they're only thinking of your best interest.

it's sounds mostly like you're just suffering depression over a dramatic change. you just went back home, split from your lover, got thrown into business, and take hardships for not being ready. these causes can sometimes make us feel that we are lost and that nothing really matters. take a few steps back. when you do you'll notice it's just that your face is so close to the picture that you couldn't see it all. put everything into perspective and don't let emotion override your brain but at the same time don't let your brain override your heart. try to balance everything.

ultimately the decision will be made by you, just put enough attention on it to make sure it's the best one. it's never a good idea to make a decision in haste.

Answer 3

Life has three phases - either you have just come through a stormy trial of life, you are right in the midst of the storm, or you are headed into the storm. As these phases pass over and over you gain strength and knowledge through the trials. Look back in your past and find the points of these life phases. Can you identify when you were headed into a stormy time? When you were in the middle of the storm? Or the gleeful time when the storm was over and everything was fantastic? This storm that you are in the midst of will pass as well. Give it a chance! Ask yourself "what can I learn from this situation?" Taking your life is not a good choice and it won't solve anything. People will be left behind to hurt and wonder what they could have done to prevent it - you don't want to put your loved ones through that! You have a purpose on this Earth, otherwise you wouldn't still be here. Search for that purpose and recognize that storms will come and go..... Peace be still...... May God bless you and reveal your purpose as He has chosen for you.

Answer 4

You sound as if you come from a family or a cultural background where family and tradition are put above everything else and from that all your problems stem...

You have a few choices. You can totally go your own way and accept that the worse that will happen is your family will turn it's back totally on you. That's the price you will pay.

You can do exactly as your family wishes making them happy but you unhappy. You can hope that someday you will at least accept your fate if not ever be happy about it.

Or, you can do as your family wants on the outside so it appears you are giving them what they want from you, but do what you want to do once you have enough control so that what they say doesn't matter. In that case you will have to wait for your happiness but it will come when you have control.

Answer 5

I think that you should talk to your parents and explain to them that your life is your life!. I assume you are old enough to make your own decisions?! (taking over business). Show them that you will be good at whatever you do. Make them understand that if they were your age they would not want thier parents to treat them like this.

As for your Bf well a Ld relationship is hard enough to begin with with out your parents interrrupting. #1 rule is your parents dont need to know everything.

If I have ever given any one any advice... this is the best one....
DONT TRY TO KILL YOURSELF!!!
There is nothing in this world worth that. You may not feel very good about yourself at the moment, but you will. Once you get through this tough time, you will be fine. And then there will be something else that will got wrong, but you just have to be strong. Only you can make the difference in your life.
When you feel like this just keep telling yourself that, "this will be over soon"!!!

Answer 6

DO you know what happens IF you are not successful in suicide?
They lock you up for 24 or more ours with other REALLY NUTTY PEOPLE...It is scary and sad.
You put your family at worry and add stress to everyone's life to get attention.
TIMES ARE HARD AROUND THE WORLD.
From what I read you should be ASHAMED of complaining like this...
I wish I had a family business shoved at me, I am out of work and have only my daughters, Thank Goddess for them!
My mom is gone, and no one else is around to care or help.
You choose the LD relationship, I chose one, too, it would still be working IF he did not get over his head in trouble, and he broke up the relationship because he had no time for me, and did not want me involved... I almost moved in with HIM!!! That would have been a BIG mistake for me.
The LD was working.

MOM is right, LD is very hard, on mind, body and soul!
The family business is something!

Sure you might not LIKE IT whatever it is...
IF it is selling drugs or something illegal then DON'T DO IT...BUT if it is just a happy family business then keep it going.
I know it bothers you that your mom and dad fight, 25 years! Let it go, it is not YOUR FIGHT!

ANOTHER choice is find something IN Canada that you can DO, like college, career, etc. AND GO FOR IT!
BUT make sure you really LOVE THIS GUY!
Canada is far away from Taiwan, too far to make a HUGH mistake like OOPS WRONG GUY!

You are going through LIFE CHOICES! not life and death one's either.

**Warning contains TRIGGER material**
Try living with being raped 3 times! At age 4 yrs. 17, and 24!
Beaten by your husband too many times to count!
Choosing to divorce him and be a single mom with 3 kids!
Not much work experience, and then going to medical classes, struggle through that, and have your MOM die!
Starting college at 40!
Starting to remember flash backs of the rapes that had been suppressed by medications !
These are some of the life choices and issues I struggled with!
I only tried to commit suicide once in all those years, and I did not make it, I am here today, to write this...
BE STRONG, we will have challenges in life.
When your BODY stops living, your spirit returns and begins a NEW LIFE...what ever anyone believes about that, HOW do YOU want to LIVE that NEW LIFE?
Remembering you were a WINNER/SURVIVOR or a QUITTER ??

You are stressed over life choices, not a NUTTER!
YOU are not mental.
All you need is to hear some MY LIFE SUCKS STORIES to know you are not alone.


Choose which things you need to do in life, and leave parents fights out of your life!

Answer 7

Sounds like that you need to do what is right for you, not what your family wants you to do. If your family is making you unhappy, and you don't like the family business, then maybe this is a sign that this is not the life you are supposed to live. If you marry the guy that your parents want you to marry, then your marriage will probably be just like your parents' marriage (fighting all of the time) because they picked a guy who is probably just like them. You parents cannot live your life for you. If you let your parents live your life for you, then your life will look like their life (that is, unhappy & fighting).

Move back to Canada and marry the guy that you love. You have to live your own life. Your parents should forgive you eventually if you drop the family business and move back to Canada.

Answer 8

Hey, I'm sorry about what is going on, but, may I suggest you see a consler, they are there to help and maybe get ya some meds o help with all the stress, if ya want to chat email me, I am a good listener, but, i don't give the best advice. good luck to ya

Answer 9

Its your life, take charge! God! Its not that hard. Move in with your bf if you love him. Good luck!

Answer 10

R U CRAZY

A man goes to a shop, picks up a beautiful cup and says "my god this cup is so beautiful" and suddenly the cup starts talking to the man. The cup starts saying "O man, I am beautiful right now, but what was the state of my being before the pot-maker made me a beautiful pot?

Before I was sheer mud and the pot-maker pulled me out of the mud from the mother earth and I felt why that pot-maker is so cruel, he has separated me from mother earth. I felt a tremendous pain. And the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then he put me and churned me, when I was churned I felt so giddy, so painful, so stressful, I asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then he put me into a oven and heated me up, I felt completely burnt. There was tremendous pain and I asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" and the pot-maker said, "Just wait."

Then he poured hot paint on me and I felt the fume and the pain, I again asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" and the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then again he put me into an oven and heated it to make me more strong, I felt life is so painful hence pleaded the pot-maker and the pot-maker said, "Just wait." And after that the pot-maker took me to the mirror and said, "Now look at yourself". And surprisingly I found myself so beautiful.

When god gives us lot of trouble, it appears god is very cruel but we need patience and we have to wait. When bad things happen to good people, they become better and not bitter.

So all difficulties are part of a cosmic design to make us really beautiful. We need patience, we need understanding, we need the commitment to go through in a very calm and wise way. So all difficulties are not to tumble us but to humble us.

With this understanding, let us not be against difficulty. Understand difficulty is a part of a purifying process. A purifying process at present which we cannot understand and hence we need faith and we need trust.

Let us understand how to handle stress with this background. You can be affected by stress from two angles. There is an internal stress and there is an external stress. Nobody can avoid stress; one has to only manage stress. Managing stress can be internal and also external.

The internal stress is; your thoughts can create stress, your values can create stress, and your beliefs can create stress, meaning thereby your stress is coming from your mind more from the outer world. Many people suffer not from heart attack - they suffer from thought-attack.

For example, when somebody says you are an idiot, we get so hurt, we get so victimised. My boss has called me an idiot and I am feeling tremendous pain. Now where does this stress come from? If my boss has called me an idiot, I have to ask myself "am I an idiot"?

If I am an idiot nothing to be upset about; and if I am not an idiot, then also nothing to be upset about! It is the perception of the boss. But why do we suffer from that stress? I suffer not because my boss has called me an idiot but because of the thought-attack.

I may say the boss has called me an idiot; therefore I am suffering? It is true that the words are unpleasant. But what hurts is the interpretation of the unpleasant word. The thought in me interprets. That is pain and therefore it becomes pain. Much of our stress is our mind interpreting it as pain. So we suffer from thought-attack more than heart attack.



1. What do you mean by ‘The wisdom to use the mind?’
Mind is a bundle of thoughts. More than heart attacks, we suffer from thought attacks.

When thoughts attack us, we become victims of thoughts. It is like employing a servant and being thrashed by him. You should be the master of the mind being your master. You should use the mind rather than let the mind use you. The very intention to be the master of the mind will give you the wisdom of how to use the mind.

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2. Why should one be calm and go beyond mind?
Generally we are dominated by thoughts… compulsive thoughts. When the mind is noisy, we feel burdened. There is a voice of the mind and also there is a voice of the soul. The voice of the soul is silence. We do not experience silence, as our mind is noisy. The voice of the soul is nourishing, whereas the voice of the noisy mind is perishing. In order to hear the voice of the soul, one should put an effort to end the noisy mind.
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3. What constitutes being happy?
Being happy involves destroying the ‘hurt body.’ We are not conscious as to how we create a hurt body. Every thought creates energy – substance. This substance created by thought, is subtle and can be negative or positive. If a thought is negative, then the substance created by the thought grows and builds up. This results in creation of subtle hurt body. This hurt body starts majoring on minor things and looks at the world independently. Thus, we do not see and think through our eyes and minds only, but we see and think through the eyes of the hurt body also. The secret of happiness lies in destroying the hurt body by creating a bliss body.
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4. How is the bliss body created?
Every thought creates energy. Entertain happy thoughts and feelings, thereby creating happy energies. This happy energy creates a bliss body and then your life will be happy.
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5. Should we not drop our desires in order to be happy?
Spiritual teachers tell us to drop desires, whereas materialistic people ask us to increase desires. In my opinion, both are wrong. Make desires sacred, by which you transcend them. Desires have two ends like a pole. One end is the object of desire. Learn to enjoy the object and do good to the world. The other end of the desire is you. In the process of doing good to the world, are you growing in silence, love, peacefulness and gratefulness? If so, then you are growing. By working on both the ends, you make your desires sacred and transcend them. Thus, desire is a problem only if you have not made it sacred.
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