Why "am I" scared?

Question

I am scared that I hear rustles
Which turn into whispers and
Slither into my ear

I am worried that my self won't
Stay inside my body, that my
Shell is cracking, my mind will float

I am concerned that everybody knows-
They can look at me and see: Watery-red
Staining my fingers and dripping down my legs

I am afraid that something will change
That nothing will change and nights
I will still cradle my heart in my hands

I am tears. Salty bloody wailing frightened
As he penetrates with his mind, over again
1-2-3-4 and I am dying when my spirit splits

I am...

Answer 1

I'm not sure if your for real or what. But being raped and hurt by someone that you love is not OK. Go talk to someone like a teacher or the preacher at your church. Go tell a neighbor. You need to tell someone on this person rather you love this person or not. You could have scars for the rest of your life. This person that you speak of in your poems needs help hon. They are hurting you and you need help to. Don't feel sorry for this person and do not feel quilt. They may try to make you feel quilty to keep you quite. You will see when you talk to someone it will all go away. Please talk to someone and get help.

Answer 2

I went back and read one of your earlier poems. They're very beautiful really, but also very sad. You seem to be exceptionally creative and artistic. I only hope you are simply creating and not actually living with the feelings you write about.

Answer 3

Yeah can relate but it help to talk to someone who understands and know why that happens that's why you go to the professionals. I did and I'm glad. Do it soon you will so much better, I promise:-) and if not you can throw sticks and stones at me I promise:-)

Answer 4

Some one just stoled ur poem and used it to get them a job in poetry. Good poem though.

Answer 5

i think you are scared because life as a 15 yr old girl in upper middle class suburbia is f*cking frightening.

Answer 6

It sounds to me like you need to talk to someone professional and get some help before you do something that is to late for you honey please let someone know that you are in the shape.

Answer 7

Nice..Poem Hun..

Answer 8

the lord has a reason for everything i say go to a church and you should submit that poem or paragragh

Answer 9

Shocked and Sadden.

Answer 10

maybe something or someone is tryin to talk to u like a lost friend or family member...i get it all the time and i love to see Wat the spirits have in store for me(as long as its good)