Demonic inner self?

Question

Sometimes after brushing my teeth I looked in the mirror transfixed at a point between my eyes, everything became vague and automatically I spoke an odd language to myself. Possibly like a baby, demon or just a fool, who knows.

Another few times, pondering 'the self' in bed staring at the ceiling, I've had the feeling of delving deep enough into my own being for my thoughts to become scared. A certain darkness, not exactly a void, perhaps an infinite evil or goodness beyond what I would want to comprehend.

And yet I am now an upstanding young man, the kind your parents never warned you about. So my Q is.. Have you had experiences as siclike, and are we really but a thin veneer atop an inherently evil being?

Answer 1

I think we develop into adulthood having been expertly trained in the art of wearing a mask, so as to be convincing even to ourselves. We do not develop without outside influence, we have no choice in this fact.
However, a few of us become aware of this conditioning and can feel some inner-character knocking on the back of our eyeballs, reminding us not to lose sight of the fact that our body is only a dwelling place. We furnish it, decorate it and take pride in it's outer appearance. The music it plays (the persona we permit the outside world to see) is yet another adornment. Our ideals and opinions are only basic factors in our conditioning. This conditioning is something to which most human beings cling to, so tightly, that the knocking stops...
Those who hear and choose to answer, to look into their reflection as near as is possible to looking into our own eyes, will be fearful at first. I chose to look from a young age, it lead to all sorts of confusion. I could look until I would almost pass out or be violently sick. But still, I chose to look.

I have wickness within me, and goodness in equal measure. Not because someone put the concepts within me, but because it is the nature of reality.

I look now and find calm.
If I could look into your eyes, you would see exactly what I am talking about...
kaja has a point about reflection.

Answer 2

Yes, we all are. As I am fond of saying, "I do not exist. I am a figment of my own imagination." And then I often add, "As are we all."

Until the time I was about fifteen, I use to get ferocious headaches. Around that time, I was reading The Bhagavad Gita and used to lie on my bed, staring at the overhead light fixture and meditatiing on the intricacies of Hindu faith and philosophy. After awhile, I started feeling an eerie feeling as though there were someone in the back of my head who was silently, intently listening to the thoughts that ran through my brain.

This was my first experience of the phenomenon that some call "The Watcher" or "The Watcher on the Threshold" Soon the headaches started to go away and they've never been back since. Yes, it's an eerie feeling at first, but please don't assume that this feeling necessarily makes it evil. If you read the Bible, you will see that every time the scripture speaks of the messengers of God appearing to humans, the first words they spoke, most or all of the time, were,"Fear not." To confront the divine can be a fearsome thing.

Later, I came to hear voices spoken inside my head that gave me good advice and helped me with problems. I don't think I'm crazy because of that, but then if I were crazy, I wouldn't think so, would I? When these voices give good advice and tell you things you would have no other way of knowing, it is best to listen to what they tell you, IMNSHO. If they give you bad advice or tell you to do things you cannot approve of, banish them at once.

Trust me, evil presences in your mind have no right to be there. If you insist they leave, they will--they must. It is your mind, you have the right and the power to bar it against those who make you uncomfortable.

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I hope this helps.

Adastrak, the Wizzard of Jacksonville

Answer 3

it's facing with yourslef. my biggest fear, so deeply hidden inside of me, is standing in fron of the mirror for more then 5 minutes. i'm afraid of that what i might see. or become.
but, i'm an ordinary brain-washed bastard that's afraid of things that you can't see or feel, means that i'm denying this as a stupid and irrelevant thing.


I'll tell u one thing i've got from it.. seems like one human being is a reflection of every personality that had ever existed.

god bless you mcatterie.. and sweet dreams.

just don't look at the mirror. or sleep alone... just don't, get a bear, ot what...

Answer 4

I designed you humans to be capable of anything and everything the choice is yours totally............ good luck! Inherently though you are neither good nor bad, again it's all about choices.

Answer 5

whenever you feel that demons are attacking you in any way, if you are christian, pray this :

In the name of Jesus, I command all of the demons attacking me to leave my body and soul this instance, in Jesus' name .


they should stop .