Have you ever tried to find your first love?

Question

were you still spellbound? or..
were you disappointed in what you found?

Answer 1

I did, just this past December the 12th.

I'd lost my virginity to her. I was older than most, almost twenty-one. She was a year younger, beautiful, funny, great laugh and dimples, huge, fawn-like brown eyes, and so, so gentle and loving. I was only her second. I didn't know that she was married until we were together for four months. Her man was in prison.

I took her back four times, but every time he got back out of jail or whatever, including other relationships, she took him back. I finally told her, "Him, or me? He hurts you and your kids all the time. He'll never change. I love you all. Your kids love me. This shouldn't be a hard decision."

It wasn't. I didn't see her again for twenty-five years, but I still thought about her all the time.

Last winter, I was finished with my ex for the final time, so I looked up my first true love. She's the one I've always judged everyone else by. It's been great at times, but never quite as good as it was with her.

Well, naturally, she's still very beautiful, and very gentle, too. She has the same great sense of humor, but not all the time like she used to. My only disappointment is that she was always such a pretty brunette, and now she's gone to ash blonde. Still, that's only superficial. It meant almost nothing. I still loved her so, so much and she said she loves me, too. I was in ecstacy. And the sex was still pretty good, too.

Eight months later, she still cheats and lies and always puts herself and her own Living-For-The-Moment needs first. No matter how good she has it, she'll drop a date on a moment's notice for the unknown, even if she's the one who originally made the date. And she'll inevitably call me during or soon afterwards, wanting me to pick her up, telling me what a horrible time she'd had, wanting to know if I still want to see her tonight, and asking if I'm angry now.

Angry? Never. Disappointed, suffering from her inconsideration and selfishness? Always. But never angry. (She smokes crack now, too. Major turn-off. Probably causes much of the fickleness as well.)

I'd only remembered the good about her. I'd forgotten that there was some bad, too, things I've never done to anyone I'd loved. So I was spellbound, but my disappointment soon trumped that. It was mostly mutual. We still stay in touch, but nothing close or intimate at all.

I've decided that I still haven't found the greatest love of my life. So I'll just keep on looking and never again look back. I deserve better, and right now, there's a woman out there who does, too. We'll find each other. It's inevitable.

Answer 2

Sure, you touch base with old friends and ask about how they are doing. Nothing in depth, though - so, I can't say that I was either spellbound or disappointed.

I'm sure that would come into play in a face-to-face meeting, though. Big time.

Answer 3

I was spellbound..
I don't think I was the right guy for her ..
Yeah sure was i thought I thought that i found true love

Answer 4

I wasn't spellbound in fact her spell was broken. Although the one thing that sucks is that all of my friends agree that she got hotter and looks way better than when we dated, that is a little of a bummer.

Answer 5

If I thought she dressed like you, I'd be looking.
Put some clothes on.
Then again. What about the second and third?

I have done a little cursory looking for a couple of old flames, having never lost track of my first love.

No luck yet on old flames. I am sure, with one exception, that we would both be disappointed. Time is kind to some and eventually to none.

Answer 6

My first love is still my best friend after 30 years. Marriage wasn't in the cards for us, but we've always remained friends. She has always been open and honest...what more could you ever ask in a friend? In recent, I feel I have let this person down and just need to make amends somehow.

Answer 7

No I haven't. Sometimes when I think about him I wonder how he is doing and hope he has found hapiness with the right person, like I have. You can't help but remember your first love, I guess.

Answer 8

Didn't try and wouldn't. Within a year after she broke it off I was so glad she was out of the picture.
One girl I did date early but didn't fall in love with was in my class. I see her at class reunions. She's a cow now.

Answer 9

Nope because if he like what he was when I date him it would be a waste of time for me to meet up with him. Because he is a jerk with a lot of family problems that would make a hit soap opera.

Answer 10

Yes I saw him about 3 years ago. He had aged...