Am I schizophrenic or have auditory hallucination or some other mental health problem?

Question

I keep saying to myslef 'No one will like me' as I keep having flash backs of a lot of wrong I did a few yeara ago (got drunk, did drugs, obsessed a lot about an ex, went to court etc). I keep calling myself what I use to call my father and I now automatically say to myself 'Die Bastard' to myself. These phrases happen automatically..so dunno if this is a conditioned response to me reacting to my past or whether these are voices in my head. I do not want to make friends as I think people will not like me ..how can anyone like me if they knew all the stuff I did? My sister over dosed a few yrs ago and she also heard voices saying she must die. She was not diagnosed with any mental health problem.

I am constantly in fear of the future as I will have to get married soon. I can't enjoy life at all. When I have been in lectures at uni...I start screaming really loudly in my head too

the bad past is stealing, hitting and pulling my nieces hair, drugs, falsely accusing men of sexual assault to get out of diificult sitns, doing drugs

Answer 1

They say if you think yopur mad your not and if you deny to others of being mad you are! I'ld say get to your docs and sort your noggin out seems like youve got alot to get off your chest to me. x

Answer 2

Ive had the voices problem, but mine was low self esteem and a breakdown. Its not necessarily schitzophrenia, you should see someone though so you can stop worrying about it, it might be a mental illness that you can be medicated for.
What do you mean you HAVE to get married soon, you are obviously not in a mental state to make that kind of commitment, you should hold off until youve got your head sorted.
Maybe its a hangover from the drink and drugs, again, you should get yourself checked out just in case.
Have you tried writing apology letters to the guys you accused and making sure everyone knows you lied. It will be hard but you would feel better afterwards and anyone who knows how difficult it is to be in that state of mind will understand, anyone that doesnt understand f***'em.
You need to forgive yourself, build some self esteem. You really dont need the stress of marriage.
If this is causing you problems in your education make sure your tutors know about it so they will understand if you say, have to leave a lecture early or take some time off. If your university has a councillor as lots do ask for an appointment or just talk to the tutor you trust the most.
PEOPLE CAN LIKE YOU. Believe me. Before I got through the voices problem I developed a second voice on purpose, I made her lovely and supportive and she argued against the other voice basically your own voice saying nice things about you. There are nice things about you or you wouldnt be concerned about other peoples feelings. Then you eventually build up the strength to just ignore the voices, then they stop.
This all sounds nuts but it worked for me, obviously it wont work if you really have schitzophrenia.
You need supportive people around you. You need someone to talk to. A chat site is not the right place to provide that kind of help.
Everyone goes nuts sometimes, everyone makes mistakes, it doesnt look like it as we're all so busy poking at our own faults.
GOOD LUCK.
If you need to talk to someone who understands and has no right to laugh whatever you say send an email to my account.

Answer 3

Dude, you are not schizo or hallucinating.

We all go through that to some degree, but most people do a really good job of hiding it. It's worse some days than others. When I was about 18-20 I felt like that a lot!

Maybe you hate yourself because you think more about yourself than anthying else. You simply know you so well, how could you not find something wrong with you? I think the name calling and the muttering under your breath are the result of a bad habit more than anything else. I used to do that, too.

Here's the solution: Read the gospel of John. If you're not a big reader, rent the video. Pay attention to it, and try to learn from it. It will change your life.

Answer 4

I don't think you have any mental problems. It seems to me that you could be having those might be the cause of feeling guilty. Many years back, I have heard my cousin saying that its easy to forgive, but its hard to forget.

You have quite a background, but if you keep hanging on to them, it will ruin the happy life that you will be experiencing. If you have discarded your past and moved on, turn over a new leaf, then let go. I know it seems hard, but no harm in trying unless you really want to see happiness slip through your fingers. Not many people gets a chance like you do and even if they do, how many really appreciate that chance. Think and do not despair. I believe that you have many caring people around you. You said you're getting married right or did I read wrongly, anyway, if you are, congrats to you, you have someone willing to make friends and love you throughout your life already.

Sometimes you have to think and feel with your heart at the same time. Do not let either one rule or you may side-tracked. Oh and if you think its hard for you to make friends, try those associations, you might be able to make friends from there. Well... you've got to start somewhere.

There might be some who will turn away, but if you have really repented, there might be some who are willing to be your friends.

Answer 5

I think it is very important that you get appropriate professional support. Whether you have schizophrenia or another mental health disorder is not for anyone here to say. Visit your GP, be very open and honest with him/her about your problems. Ask for a psychiatric referral. It may be you just need a bit of support at the moment, in which case counselling may help. You may need more input from your local mental health team. Either way, PLEASE contact your doctor and make sure you get the help you're entitled to . You are a unique human being and as such deserve help and support. I hope you get there.

Answer 6

I think you're being rather hard on yourself. You'd be surprised how people respond, if you'd give them a chance. Keeping in mind, no one is perfect. You sound to me like you just need a little more direction. Have you considered talking to you Mental Health counseling center? Take a chance........like my father used to tell me, what's the worst that can happen? Hang in there and seek some counseling my friend.

Answer 7

I don't think you're schizophrenic, however you do sound mentally troubled, you need to find ways to calm yourself down, think about getting help...email [e-mail] if you can't face talking to someone face to face, they will really help you.

If it's any consolation, i did some stupid stuff in my youth that i'm not proud of ... it doesn't make you a bad person , just a person having a bad time.

Answer 8

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Answer 9

Hey Axel, I'm Star , I'm dyslectic so if something does not make sense in one direction I automatically read it in the other direction! Sounds[ please forgive the pun] to me like you need the help of a good counsel. Call the local health department and they can tell you the number of the local crisis line there you will be able to talk with someone. When you feel comfortable you can go in for some one on one. I would not rely on a place called Yahoo for mental help. Please take some of the good advice and talk to some one they can help you we can't!

Answer 10

You are not schizophrenic. You are in severe depression and really need to seek help. First place to start is with your family doctor. There are some drugs he can prescribe as a start. He will also refer you to specialist who who help you. It may take a few years to overcome this.

Answer 11

First of all well done for getting off drugs and on the straight and narrow. Best of luck with your uni course!

It sounds like either a side effect of having taken drugs in the past or that you have lots of unresolved issues. Please talk to your doctor or your uni counsellor for help. It is good that you want help and what you have been through can only make you stronger if you get the professional help and support you need.

Good luck!