I vague remember some adults having sex with me when I was a child (no one in my family)???

Question

I remember someone outside the family having sex with me when I was a child - 4-5 years old. It was no one in my family - and I am sure the memory is 100% real! The memory never returned to me till I was adult and heard of a lot of people being 'traumatized' with child hood sexual molestation. I have turned out OK and successful and I am extreemly protective of all children I know. Am I abnormal for not being traumatized? If I start acting out abnormal sometime in future, would it be related to childhood trauma?
I am not making fun of what I realize is a very serious matter. These are my true experiences and genuine questions!

When I first heard of all the other cases, I did not even imagine what the big deal was?

Answer 1

Your memory are true and that is why your over protected about children...You are not abnormal for not being traumatized,Your memory of what toke place is finely coming out and if you thing all these memorys are going to made your feel abnormal in the future,I would seek therapy now and get the help you need to work out what as happen to you,When you were young..And this would be related to your trauma...Deep down inside you,you have hidding the name of the person who did this terrible thing to you...In therapy it might just come out...You need closer of this horrible attact on your body,So you can move on...You will start feeling alot better about yourself...GOOD LUCK...

your friend Clowmy

Answer 2

I must say that it is very unusual to not recall a childhood memory throughout your entire life that traumatized youhowever you are not abnormal. Sometimes when an incident like this occurs form someone that we love and trust and dont know any better it doesen't traumatize us at the moment therefore you don't carry around the harsh and hard to deal with feelings. when we hear about other people being traumatized it can trigger memories in us that we didn't even know that we had. I works the same way that a familair sent or tune triggers our memory back tomour childhood. As far as you acting out because of it it really depends. For example if you have a child one day whom is a girl you may become very overprotective her to do your best to ensure that no one hurts her that way they hurt you. If it doesen't really affect you now emotionally or sexually then consider yourself to be very lucky. If it bothers you and you have qunanswered questions about the situation then I suggest you bring it to your moms attention and see if she knows about it and possibly know who did it. My guess is it was someone in your family, possibly your immediate family that did this to you! I will pray for you that you will continue to move past it. If you were really raped your mom would have known becasue you would have suffered from some physical injuries.

Answer 3

I am not sure of the question but I was also molested when I was 4-5. Not just once or twice but often by a babysitter that was living with my parents at the time. I have to say I have not been tramatized either. I am overprotective of my son who is 12 (if thats even possible). I don't sleep around nor do I have any sexual problems. Just highly aware that a man will never babysit for me not even a relative. Other than that Im a perfectly healthy hethrosexual. I don't believe that you are automactically hypersexual just because you are molested. It has to do with your upbringing as well

Answer 4

I have encountered similiar experiences. I was 8...and the person was supposed to be babysitting!!! It was my Grandpa. I will never forget this as long as I live and when he died I didnt even cry at his funeral. I was that bitter towards him...and still am even though hes dead.
I waited till about a year ago to tell someone for fear that no body would believe me.....
Please tell someone! (if you havent already) like a close family member or someone u trust. What ive learned from my experience is that some day you need to work up the courage to forgive that person because if you dont, It will stay built up forever until you finally break down. This is a very serious situation and should not be taken lightly of course.
My experience has also made me very protective of my children.

Answer 5

Your Q sound sincere so here goes.
You say you are OK and success-full.
It would help to know what age you r now - some memories tend to surface much later in our lives.
You are not abnormal - memories can be suppressed - mostly for the protection of our own sanity.
Which brings me to my next point.
The memories are vague according to you - leave it at that and concentrate on the life you have.
However, if in future, you do experience problems do speak to a professional person about it without delay.
WISHING YOU LUCK
May all turn out well

Regards
PomDoepol

Answer 6

Some times our memory plays tricks on us. Your mind may have latched on to someone elses memories thu your listening to theirs or hearing about other peoples molestation. They also could be 100% true but its strange you can remember that it wasnt a family member. Repressed memories arent always real ones . Why not talk to your mother and ask her if she knew or suspected that a molestation happened. And at 4-5 yrs old you did not have sex with anyone ...You were molested.

Answer 7

you need to get into therapy it will help you through this. and the best of luck to you, who knows you may start giving lectures on the subject.

Answer 8

Go to a psychologist.

Answer 9

...please get help!!! my childhood sexual abuse ruined my life...i started to remember at age 30...i've never been able to have a healthy relationship with a man....people can't get close to me...get help before any future problems occur please....

Answer 10

Don't fix it if it ain't broke.