Have you ever considered suicide, and what changed your mind?

Question

I'm not in that frame of mind. On the weekend a friend admitted to me she'd thought of it and told me thoughts of her dog convinced her not to!

Answer 1

I got to the point of rehearsing a suicide. I put some dryer hose and duct tape in the trunk of my car, selected a suitable place and time, and resolved myself to die by CO poisoning. However, I'm a coward and chickened out.

Later a therapist or some other person in group reminded me that my car has a catalytic convertor and probably could not produce enough CO to kill me. Instead I would be made sick as hell, if not a vegetable.

That would figure, wouldn't it? I only saved myself from making an utterly stupid mistake by being a coward. I'm reminded of the anecdotal tale about the guy who took a dive off the Empire State Building, only to be blown back into the building a few floors down and right through an office window. Supposedly he landed feet-first like George Reeves as Superman, with only a few scratches to show for his effort.

I also bought a gun once, but when my shrink found out (I think he was flagged somehow by the background check), he reminded me that he could be held liable if I committed suicide while under his care. That took care of that. No way was I going to drag anyone down with me. I returned the gun.

BTW, I don't believe in an aftermath such as Hell, or in fact in anything at all. I'm not afraid of being dead. I'm just terrified of the process of dying.

Answer 2

Yes, once upon a time I thought of leaving this world - it felt that bad. However, I was in a doctor's office many moons ago when a man, upset because he was told he'd need to go back to the hospital for surgery, took out a gun, shot his doctor and then himself, in front of his mother. (This was a man probably in his 30s and was NOT terminally ill). I didn't see it, but I heard it. I was alone in an exam room and was able to lock the door, because at the time I didn't know the shooter was dead. After leaving, the fear I felt about the situation turned to anger at that man, that selfish man that decided to end his life and mess with so many others on the way out - the people that worked there and the patients that were unlucky enough to witness the event. And then it moves out, to the families and friends of all those involved. What gave him that right? There's a book that I only skimmed called Tears of a Tiger, where a young basketball player, drunk, hits another car and his best friend dies. It goes through some of these same emotions.

Answer 3

Yes , more than once. I didn't do it for a few reasons.
I didn't have enough pills to do it (Thats the only way i ever would be able to do it).
I felt that something was holding me back, that i wasntmeant to, and i was right because I was lead to god a few months after considering it.
Plus the thought of burning in eternity in hell if i did so was pretty much the last straw.
I wasnt going to do it.
I have a whole lot of problems.
I'm bipolar, deeply depressed (used to be anyways), people were speculating possible schizophrenia, OCD, and i had a problem with cutting.
I have been in a mental instatute 3 times and in out patient twice. Then i went to a new instatute for 5 days. And this has all happened since feb 23 2006.
So just remember that God loves you and he wouldnt want you to hurt yourself. And if you don't believe in God , you really need to.He will save you from burning.

Answer 4

Yes, I contemplated on doing it back in 2nd grade. I even tried to tell people. The only reason I was trying to tell people before I did it, was really to tell why I was doing it, but I never had the guts to let them know what was going on in my life to bring me to such a grim conclusion of escape, so instead we ended up only talking about suicide and not the real issue that was truly plaguing me.

Eventually they tried to lecture me, but to no avail. I stopped my self by realizing that ALL Life is worth living no matter what. I got stronger from realizing that too. I moved on with my life after that. I'm lucky that I never got a chance to go through with it.
:)

Oh and I also realized it was selfish to do. Because of the effects I’ll have on others by doing it, which brings me back to my point, that all life is worth living especially if one has that much influence on things around them. Which means I could change my current situation.

And yes I was serious about it at the time.

Its never crossed my mind since. Actually I’ll fight to live
;-)

Answer 5

I have considered it and what changed my mind was research. I looked all over the Internet, joined some groups and tried to find the perfect way to do it without any pain and it's not possible. Thankfully, my depression past and I no longer have the desire, but that's why I didn't and I'm really glad. Even when you think you can't go on, things WILL get better.

Answer 6

Well, this may be the blandest (or most morbid) answer you'd get... but my mind wasn't changed. I was going through with it, but my dad broke the door in and prevented me.

Now that I think about it... I wish my mind WAS changed, instead of going through that horrible intervention. :-(

*I slashed my arms and applied anticoagulants on them. I tried to go to sleep in the dark, but I couldn't. So I got up and felt really dizzy. I turned the lights back on and I woke up to a PUDDLE of blood. I was all pale and everything. :-/

The dirty coppuhs (just wanted to say that, :-p) came and blah blah blah.

I kind of envy those who had attempted suicide but CHANGED THEIR MINDS, since I never got the chance to change my mind. What's funnier is that a lot of those who have attempted suicide envy people like me because we're the ones who aren't thwarted by cowardice; we go all the way.

Anyway, if you or your friend need any help, just email me. I've got a lot of stories to tell. :-)

Answer 7

Only once, and that was one most stupid moment of my life. Anyway i don't think i'd have the guts 2 do it. But an amazing friend of mine called to tell me how much he loved me and wouldn't know what to do if i were gone. He knew i was feeling very depressed those days and was afraid lol. But it all turned out fine, and we are really good friends now. Just good friends. We found out later that we're not meant for each other.

Answer 8

I considered it but I couldn't figure out how to do it without hurting my family so bad. I finally decided how to do it so my kids wouldn't be the ones to find me and had it all planned out. I was on my way to carry out my plan when my phone rang and it was a friend of mine who had no idea of what I was about to do but she realized the state I was in and just started talking some since into me. Needless to say, I just started crying and I told her thanks. I never told her she saved my life though...

In a couple of weeks after that, I realized that killing yourself IS being a coward. It takes guts to make it through all life's struggles. You can't do it alone. Being religious helps. I am of the Christian faith so I have Jesus to lean on but no matter what religion you are, you need to pray for strength to carry on if you are planning on such drastic measures. Just remember, it's PERMANENT! Don't be a coward. Be strong and it never hurts to seek help. I did. Sometimes it helps to go into seclusion but what's good for one person isn't necessarily what's good for another. Please seek professional help if you are considering suicide. God be with you always!

Answer 9

I have thought of suicide many times when i m depressed, but the thought that if i will not die after an attempt made me change my mind.

Answer 10

Nope, never. If you consider it too much, it leads to doing it. Go out and be with friends. If you spend too much time alone, it can lead to those thoughts. Call a trusted friend. Pray more than you've ever done before. Do something that you have always wanted to do. I hope this helps! :)