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Then and Now.

Bent my head and smiled secretly.
Thought of you and got lost in my feelings blissfully,
Heard your voice and fell into a magical void,
Where it was just you and I, our love fragile yet undestroyed.

Bend my head and sigh dejectedly,
Think of you and feel my heart constrict painfully,
Hear your voice and feel something hide away,
The void is empty now- the magic has faded away.

Looked at everything as though through a happy haze,
Life threw its lemons in my face; I threw them back in a daze.
Everything seemed colorful-I savored each color,
The place for you in my heart kept getting bigger and bigger.

Look at everything through a clear insight,
Life throws the same lemons in my face-I don’t turn away without a fight.
Everything is still colorful- but the brighter colors are fading,
The place for you in my heart is deteriorating.

Smiled at everything and laughed away every kind of pain,
You kept that smile on my face and kept me sane,
Always kept me a cut above everybody else,
Loved me more than I deserved, loved me more than life itself.

Smile at everything and cringe as the pain now stings,
You showed me the penalty I knew my insanity would ultimately bring.
Suddenly I’m well below everybody else,
Hate me more than I deserve, hate me more than hatred itself.

Then I felt as though nothing could hurt me,
Now I know what reality is, without which nothing ever would be.
Then I was on top of the world, your love kept me alive,
Now I’m down below- without you-learning to survive

Answer 1

I like the subtl way your rhyming pattern changes when the feelings begin to change. Nice touch.

Answer 2

What is your question

Answer 3

pretty nice :-)

Answer 4

quite good...