I did something very bad, and i can not forgive myself of it, I had a friend i met while doing volunteer work as a teen, and he had an accident and was paralyzed from weist down,,
i became close to him, and he was in m y life for years, in fact he was everything to me, when i was in trouble,, he would help me or fix it, when i was in hospital, he visited me, paid part of bill,
When i had boyfriend problems, he would be the ear, he would give grewat advise.
He became a bailbondsman,and had lots of money, he was always giving me money, not lending ,, just givng it to me when i would screw up.
If i would lose my job, i would go and live with him, he never charged m e rent, i would cook and we would talk alot, he had lots of friend, and was busy and yet never too busy for me, he would practically drop everything for me if i called lhim and said i was depressed,, i would do the same for him but not as much,
Itook the greatest , smartest, kindest, friend for granted, many times i would make plans with him, when i was down,,but if i made up with boyfriend or whatever i would cancel,, i took advantage of him and i am sorry,
ONE DAY, WHILE I WAS LIVING WITH HIM, HE WAS SLEEPING AND I WENT INTO HIS PANTS POCKET WHERE HE ALWAYS KEPT A WAD OF CASH,,
AND I TOOK A HANDFUL,
I WENT SHOPPING, BOUGHT MYSELF CLOTHES, ETC, HE NEVER SAID ANYTHING IF HE EVEN MISSED IT I DON'T KNOW, I KNEW IT WAS WRONG,
YET I DID IT ... YES I FELT GUILTY,,, FOR YEARS, AND YEARS,
THEN I BECAME SUCESSFUL IN REAL ESTATE, AND WAS BUSY, DID NOT SEE HIM AS OFTEN AS I SHOULD, BUT I DECIDED I WAS GOING TO TELL HIM, WHAT I DID AND PAY HIM BACK ,, I LET YEARS GO, AND THEY WENT QUICKLY, AND I WAS BUSY,,
ONE NIGHT I CALLED HIM TO TALK AND SAY I WANTED TO SEE HIM, AND I WAS GOING TO CONFESS,,
THEY SAID CALL BACK TOMORROW, AND I DID, AND THE PEOPLE ON THE PHONE SAID IF YOU WERE SUCH A GOOD FRIEND YOU WOULD HAVE KNOWN HE DIED ALMOST TEN YEARS AGO,
I LOST, (THREW AWAY, THE GREATEST FRIEND AND HUMAN BEING I EVER HAVE KNOWN OR WILL KNOW)..SORRY, GUILTY, DOES NOT EVEN TOUCH HOW ASHAMED I AM FOR THAT, THAT WAS AND IS THE WORST, AND MOST SELFISH THING I HAVE DONE, AND I AM SO SORRY,
THAT IS MY LONG BUT SERIOUS UGLY THING, I WOULD LIKE TO CHANGE AND CAN NOT
2006-07-08 14:31:21
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answered by Maureen K 4
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