Is there any recovered anorexics out there...?

Question

basically i want to get better and im so scared. So, i was just wondering if there is anyone out there who have been through it and is it that bad?

Answer 1

Hi there!
Yes ...I was anorexic for about 4 years...I went from a healthy 125 pounds to a scary 75!! I was discusting looking! I looked like I was 10! I am currently 24, beautiful and healthy!
I was very scared when my mother forced me to go to a clinic at 75lbs. I hated her. I was only 16 at the time. I sheduled apts weekly with a dietician, and a doctor. My heart rate was so slow that they were suprized I hadn't had a heart attack yet! So months went by, and I tried to trick then into beliveing that I was getting better. But yet my weight was only about 85 lbs. I was so scared of loosing that fufillment of choosing what I ate, and being in my own world. I lost some friends at that point because I was ant-social at the time, I was always fighting with my mother, and always angry because all I could think about was my weight and how I looked. I took over my way of thinking and my my life!
As I got older, 19-20, My weight stayed steady at about 105. Which was better than 75, but still underweight. I looked like I was 13. People didn't take me seriously, they could tell I was voulnerable inside and weak. I couldn't focus on my life, or college for that matter.
I started to make more friends, go out more and start to understand that life is too short to worry about your weight and why was I still like this? Still eating apples and soup all the time. So boring! I realized..."What if I do eat that piece of chocolate?, or have one more round of mashed potato? What's the worst thing that could happen to me seriously?" So I went for it. I had a piece a chocolate, and enjoyed every bite of it! I was nervous and felt guilty after. I was thinkning to myself, ok so I won't eat dinner, or I'll exersize an hour more. NO...I had to stop. Everything in my life is getting better...I wanted to feel alive again, and get control of my future. I didn't want some stupid piece of food controling me!
So...I did it. I took control. I let it go. And learned what correct portion sizes were, how to eat what my body needs for nourishment. I did it.
at 24 I'm 135 lbs and feel sexier than ever. I'm a woman, I'm sucessful, and I'm happy with a man who loves me for every piece of me. I couldn't be happier.
As a result of my anorexia, my heart has permanent heart pulpitations, and flutters often. I have the bones of a 48 year old...yes 48 and I'm 24. I had lost my period for almost 2 years and didn't get any calcium. And I might not be able to have a baby someday. ...now tell me....is a piece of food worth all that? I regret that I didn't seek help sooner. One day at a time........I hope you find the key to a happier life like I did.

Answer 2

Hi, Ive been recovered for about 2 years now. Recovering was avery stressful, very difficult and veryy long process but worth it. No more worrying yourself to death, no more always feeling sick and weak, no more questions from friends and family and no more guilt.
Sadly, I think my ED is comming back. Feel free to email me if you want to talk.

Answer 3

I wouldn't do this alone. Confide in a therapist and/or your familty.

You have made a brave decision! Good luck!!