I've lost my will to live. What should i do?

Question

i feel that this might be my final fight in life. And if " i were to lose this battle that ive been literally fighting with for 12 years then my will to live is gone" Dispite whatever anyone would say about me. THat i am a strong individual. I really am not, Im fragile insecure and lonely. Lonely because i push everyone away in my life. and the people that i beg to be close to are begging to be away from me. In one sense i am dying to be loved and in another dying because i feel i am not. Ive done alot of things in the past because i was crying out for attention and not just to hurt myself. But i am tried of the lack of attention i am getting im done with crying and this time will be the last time i ever hurt again. I am tried of feeling like i have resort to huffing to get ride my problems. I am tried of feeling like i should stop thinking about myself and think about some1 else. when no one around me is thinking about me to begin with. I give just give up. Im done with life. Why live and feel unlove. I am tried of feeling like i have to keep apologzing. I am tried of feeling like this. I think my journey has ended. My journey with life.....

Im not talking about love as in from the opposite sex im talking about love for the people who matter the most. Your family. Mainly my mother and father

Answer 1

first slow down, suicide is not the answer. first get away from anybody who doesnt want to be near you. you might want to stop and evaluate who you are and might seek some counseling. might too want to find a new set of people who have something more in common with what you like, those people generally will show you lots if love in return,but ending your life is not the answer.

Answer 2

You have a lot of issues that need to attended to. But you also are the only one that can answer some of these questions: 1.why do you push everyone away? 2. what is it your insecure about? Not only do you need to give other ppl a chance to get close to you, but you need to give yourself a chance. Everyone has done something in their past they regret. But you can't live in the past, either. If you were to end it, then your not giving yourself the chance to care about someone else, or giving someone else the chance to care about you. It saddens me that your so frustrated w/ life that your willing to end it. Everybody deserves a second chance, maybe your going about trying to get attention the wrong way. I suggest you get into a counselor, and try to get some of these things resolved, but then again you have to be here for that!! And huffing isn't going to make everything go away. How do you know no one is thinking about you? Have you ever asked, have you given anyone the chance to answer? You need to love yourself first. Alot of ppl struggle everyday with depression, and there's help for that. But you have to want the help first. If you feel that no one is listening, look at all the answers you've got so far. We're listening. Give yourself a chance to get help, before you go and do anything. You never know how much suicide affects family members. I've witnessed it first hand, and it's a terrible thing to have to face. Please get yourself some help. You can always go to the nearest emergency room, and they can get you help.

Answer 3

I would suggest that you seek spiritual guidance from a Christian church. God loves you! Even if you don't have access to a church, read some verses from the Bible. God loves you! He doesn't want you to die! He has a plan for your life, and most important, even when you make bad choices, God will always forgive you! He listens when you want to talk, He comforts you when the world slips away, and no matter what you say or do, He never stops loving you!
Just remember, not everybody in the world hates you. You could have changed someone's life without knowing it.

Answer 4

I know that there are times in life where you really feel like life is over, and I know that it seems like the easiest thing to do would to just give up - BUT it isn't. Sometimes that is hard to believe, too... but really, don't give up!

Answer 5

What in your life can you be proud about? What are your skills? Doing that can help you feel better about yourself.
Are you speaking with a doctor about this? There may be someone he/she can refer you to.
I have found some really good friends at OpenDiary.com. You journal and people give you supportive comments.
If you have the energy, volunteer somewhere. The people will appreciate you. Appreciation is very important for a positive self image. It helps you see yourself in a more positive light. Being needed also helps. It helps you to step outside yourself and see a bigger picture.
Best of luck.

Answer 6

Do not give up. Life will get better. Trust me. All of us go through ups and downs but we can't give up. I once contemplated suicide and I thank God that I didn't go through it. I have seen and done so many things that I would have ever dreamed of. Eventhough you might not see it, someone loves you for who you are.

Answer 7

I think you should stop a second and take a deep breath. K... now forget about the thought of leaving and going any where. You need to not care so much about what people think or say or even dont say. None of that matters. You need to love yourself before anyone will even know how to start loving you. Good luck to you.

Answer 8

I don't know what is wrong but you can't give up.There are people that need you and love you.Hang on...

Answer 9

don't give up. i've been there too. you dont realize how many people do care

Answer 10

good god, all they ever wanted was for you to get out and enjoy life.
they keep pushing you away because they don't want you moping around at home.
stop looking at the past.