i'm so lonely...?

Question

i'm 16, and have had really bad depression for the past few years of my life. i'm homeschooled, i'm not allowed to date, and i am only allowed to hang out with ppl from my church. problem is, i have no friends from my church. i have had alot of baaad things happen in my life, and everyone knos it, so they just ignore me.
i work as a nanny, and that's pretty much my socialization. i hang out in a house with 2 little girls. i can't drive yet, so i am dependant on my parents to take me anywhere, so i can't just get up and go.
my life sucks sooo much!!! a couple of years ago, i attempted suicide a few times, and i kno it sounds horrible, but i almost wish that i would have succeeded!
is anyone in a similar situation?

Answer 1

Man, that sucks. Death is not the answer though. Right now, you are 16 and I know it seems like the end of the world. But soon, you will be out of school and on your own at college or at least you can move out of the house. In order to gain life experience vicariously, I would suggest reading all the books you can get your hands on. Even fiction can get you out of "your world" for a while. It sounds like you have very strict and religious parents, so be careful about what you read in front of them. Hang in there, its not forever.

Also, since it is your strict upbringing that is causing you this great depression, have you even spoken to your parents about family counseling?

Answer 2

I have my moments where I feel lonely. I live in a place where I don't speak the language. But I learned that you really just have to search. My advice is to start taking group lessons of some sort. If you prove to your parnets that they are good people they should go for it. If they don't then...well. Maybe at least your church people will pay more attention to you if they see you have other friends.

I don't think they ignore you because you've had bad things happen to you I think they may feel a little bit awkward because they don't want to have to talk about it or you might be bringing it up..? The worst thing to do is to act despondant. If you smile eventually you convince yourself that you're happy and it makes other people think you're pleasant to be around.

Answer 3

Look,I'm 47 years old and am not about to start a conversation with a 16 year old kid.I do want to tell you though that you really need to get any ideas of suicide out of your head.You have just begun your time here on this earth and life is great!You may not think so now but it will get better as the years go on.keep strong and talk with your pastor about what is bugging you.Just please don't do anything stupid.Death is forever there is no coming back should you decide you don't like it.

Answer 4

I have had depression ever since my pre-teen years. You just have to keep your head up, on the bright side you will be 18 and maybe go to college, get your own place and tell your parents that they can go suck a donkeys....yeah ok lol Or you can just tell them to bite you that works too. :D I have had at least 6 relationships fail. Be glad that this hasnt happened to you, when and if you do have a failed relationship remember that that is nothing to want to kill your self over either. That would just make your ex happy, NEVER make an ex boyfriend happy. Good luck in everything you do, hang in there!!!

Answer 5

Hi I"m not in the same situation and i am 53 but i feel you
you can feel lonely and sad ,take those feeling and toss them
away and look at the bright side , you are young and beautiful
you have whole life waiting on you, enjoy these few years with
your parent ,you have a lot of thing to learn before you get out
on your own

Answer 6

i use to feel like this all the time from the age 5 till i was about 12 i was home schooled too. have u ever been to a real school

ask ur parents if u can go to a phycolisgis i have to go to one for when i get upsett
not only do i feel depressed but i try to kill other people.

but thats mainly cuz my mother . my mom tried to kill my when i was younger about 1 or 2 and i remember it.








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Answer 7

I'm not in your situation but my heart bleeds for you. I lost my baby brother a few years ago. He was in his early 20's. You are only 16. You have so much to look forward to. Don't dwell on the past,live life to its fullest in the present and plan to make a better life for yourself in the future. Things seem to be going down hill at the moment but I promise you it will get better. Suicide hurts a lot of people who love you. It's something we mourn the rest of our lives when a famly member does it. I didn't loose my brother that way but losing him at all was too much to handle. There are people who love you and who depend on you. Especially the two little girls. be a role model for them. Be a role model for yourself. You'll see....there will be a rainbow at the end on your pain. Don't worry about having friends. Be a friend to yourself first. Like yourself first. Then, people who like you will be plentiful and your friends will multiply.

Answer 8

I was raised the only child. so I was alone a lot. I find doing crafts is so much fun when you are alone. I like making cards. Can you print your question out? I think it would be a good idea to give it to your parents. You don't want to hurt yourself in anyway. There are thousands of reasons to live for. Everything is going to be alright.

Answer 9

I can understand life is tough. But i'm sure you will have a good time in future, dont worrk you are only 16 now, you have lots of time to enjoy. You are too young to be independent.. lets some years go then you will be a free bird.

Good Luck

Answer 10

Hey lonely! I am 45 yrs old and suffer from severe Manic depression. I live 3000 miles from my family so, yes I am lonely. However when it comes to hurting myself again I hang on to the promise that the situation will not stay the same forever. God Bless.