will this ever end?

Question

i have been having bi polar and aniety for awhile now. it has gotten to the point where i hardly leave the house. i dnt feel comfortable driving or even gng to the store anymore. i have been with my boyfriend for over a year and havent even went to his mothers house because she lives far away from a hospital. i have been on effexor for 3 months and lithium for 9 days and i take lorazapam for anxiety but have taken it so much that it doent do anything for me. i have thought about gng to the hospital but i have 3 children and i love them so much i dnt wnt to lose them. i just dnt understand why i cnt control my head and and i wish that i quit being so moody and thinking of hopeless things so much. i wnt to work again and i wnt to drive. i am tld that the lithium will work but it takes awhile to kick in. i feel like i have lost touch with what the real world is or have thought that maybe the reason my head is dng this is because i have a problem with my brain but had an MRI last yr and

and it was fine. i am a good person and i wnt to be the mom and the happy person i used to be can someone please help me?

Answer 1

Yes, It will end...give the lithium time, and it will balance the chemicals that are messed up in your system, and make things very much better for you. Then don't make the mistake so many others have...when the Lithium starts making you feel so great, and feel so "normal" don't make the mistake to think you can stop taking it...if you stop, then it can't go on helping you, and you'll get out of balance again.

You must have your Lithium just like you must have water everyday, without skipping. Next, you can do what many have found helpful, and that is, to get with a group of peers, and learn the "proper" responses (even when you feel crappy). You're mood swings are beyond normal in both directions, both happiness and sadness. "Normal people stay more in the middle. We ALL have moods, but not as far as you experience.
We all learn to control our moods. You can learn some control too. Don let your medical condition be an excuse to not practice proper control when ever and where ever you can.

I pray you do better, and continue ...and live a long and peaceful life.
I WISH YOU LOVE
STW

Answer 2

Go to the hospital Get someone to take you as soon as possible. I have been where you are and lithium did not help me. many people have to try different medications. I had to leave kids at home to get better but it is WAY worth it.
When you get a regular doctor and meds that work then you will be able to be a great mom and do anything you want.
If you don't go, you will not get better.

Your diagnoses could be wrong or you could have more than one diagnoses like me. The only way the doctors can really tell what meds you need is for you to go in-patient. It will only be for a few days and it will change your life dramatically.
Peace
Take the step for your family if you won't do it for yourself.

Answer 3

I wish I had a really good answer, or some steps you could take that would inevitably lead to recovery. Unfortunately,I don't and I don't know that there is a tidy answer. I am sure you have heard most of them already. But my heart goes out to you and without sounding trite, I will send this with a prayer that God gives you peace, joy, strength, a sound mind and that He makes Himself very real to you in a hard time. I'm sorry for what you are struggling with.

Answer 4

I am sorry your feeling so bad. It sounds like your meds are not working. Have you spoken to your Dr? 3 months on Effexor is enough time for it to be working. I took Effexor for a while (In the process of weaning off) and I just kept getting worse. The dr increased the Effexor and I got worse and worse. My new dr is tapering me off the Effexor XR. It's a horrible feeling not being able to control your emotions. Go see your dr and tell him what you just told us. I am sure he can help, if he doesn't, find another dr.....Good Luck, I will pray for you...:)

Answer 5

You need to take a time out and say to yourself that the world is not going to eat you. you are OK and your kids are OK. Life is just waking up everyday and moving on. Doing what you gotta do. Most importantly you need to find the source of the stress and get rid of it. worked for me after 9 years of drugs and therapy. Found out it was my ex husband causing the stress..so i divorced him and have not been on any drugs since. I also changed jobs and now i feel normal.

Answer 6

i kinda know how u feel. ive been on effexor for about four years, and every other medication before that. its just that for me, it works. dont worry though, there has to be something out there that will help, and you will find it, just dont give up. just try to stay strong, especially for your kids. good luck and i hope u feel better soon.

Answer 7

You can message me if you want to talk.