When i was 1 my dad died from a cocaine overdose, a month later my mom suffererd a head injury and has short?

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term memory loss now. From then i lived with my grandma and uncle. In 8th grade she died, (i found here laying in the bathroom, she had thrown up blood or something and then fell, all i k now is that the whole bathroom was red) that was pretty traumatic, i then stayed living with my uncle. I saw my mom every week, shes at rehab for her head injury. Recently she broke her leg and somethng is wrong with her head. Shes at a nursing home and barely makes any sense. My aunt is an alcoholic but is for the most part alright, i talk to her everyday. When she drinks its just hard too:-/. My uncle takes care of me now. Hes great but expects so much out of me. I take care of all the chores & just deal with so mcuh. I have a boyfriend but at times can be sometimes verbally abusive and jelous. I dont kno this all is so overwhelming at times. Somtimes im happy but othere times i just.. get so sad. What is this? I sumtimes cut to releive the stress.. i dont kno everything just builds up, and its been

alot to handle. I think the grandma thing botheres me the most, i was the one that found her. I dont know.. ill feel so happy and then feel so sad. I feel like i need to talk to someone but my uncle always tells me seeing a counseler is a sign of weakness. Is this anxiety? I wish i could describe it. Before i go to bed everything just rushs through my head. I am only 16. Could anyone please help me?

The only reason im asking this is beacause i dont come off as unhappy or stressed. I love school and love all my friends and everything, i dont know.. i hope this all makes sense:-/

Answer 1

I am so sorry for all you have had to suffer, I have had many childhood traumas too..and it carried onto my young adult life, if you ever need someone non judgmental to talk to email me.

Answer 2

Omg.... honey!
That story is sooooo heartwrenching. I'm so sorry about everything that's happened to you.
I dont have any Idea what you're going through, and I know that's not exactly what you want to hear from me, starting off. But-
You have been through so much, and I don't know how you could make it without a counselor. It's not a sighn of weakness, sweetie. Your uncle is damn wrong. It's called being smart, and realizing that your life is not a walk in the park, even if you can act like it.
Girl, I am so... shocked at this story....
It is excruciatingly beautiful, in an "Im about to burst into tears and smash the computer" kind way that i just want to come up and hug you, on the fact that you've stood strong through all of this.
I hate to know that these things go on in the world, and the fact that you have had to go through so much... it's painful just to read this. You have a way with words, that just.... oh. I'm seriously touched by your story.
I will never again say "life sucks"... you have had to deal with so much. I am... speechless.

I admire you, and I'm completely willing to listen, if you want to talk.
And have you ever thought about writing a memoir? What you have here, is touching, and I think if you twisted it around a bit, you could write a very, very strong short memoir. I, personally would love to read it. If you ever go through with it, leave me a comment or something at http://www.xanga.com/curlyq3345 . I'd love to hear from you, and I'm willing to listen if you ever need a shoulder to cry on... even though I can't quite offer a literal shoulder, lol. (I'm not a Meet in real life kinda girl).
Best wishes with your mother, unlce and boyfreind, and I sincerely hope you do see a counselor. I know how hard it can be to talk to your freinds about things like this. Most people our age just don't understand.
And baby, stay strong... live in art, oh my god... tears coming.
Please, please, don't go suicidal. You are an amazing, strong individual, and I really do think that you should see a counselor, all you've been through... Sweetie, hang on. You're going to make it though.

Answer 3

You really need someone to talk with. I am so sorry for the hardships you have seen. You need to find a way to put all the bad things out of the way and prepare for a happy fullfilling life. You are far too young to bear such burdens. Is there a counselor at school or a teacher you could speak with? You did a good job composing your question, I find it sometimes helps a great deal to discuss or write down your issues, that way they can be defined and dealt with. I wish you so much happiness and good luck. Set very high expectations for yourself, do not accept an abusive boyfriend under any circumstances.

Answer 4

You have endured more in your life than others do in a life time. It is easy to say stay strong and I hope you do. Find someone you can talk to on a regular basis about your feelings about things. No one has the right to abuse you. ou are a special person, a remarkable young lady. Write down your thoughts and experience and feelings in a journal. That will help you and it will probably make a good book some day. Stay Strong and be good and be true to you.

Answer 5

Your uncle is wrong about counseling being a sign of weakness--VERY wrong. After the very traumatic events and losses you've suffered you do need counseling. Look up the number of the nearest child protective service office and call them. Here is a phone number you can call 1-800-4-A-child (1-800-422-4453). You might also call your minister or priest for help.

Answer 6

That is pitiful. You are just suffering from all these things all your life and your only a kid. I think you should be with this counseling group that have light family members drinking and smoking problems like that at school. I feel real bad right now about what happened to you.

Answer 7

Your not weak..you have been through so much u poor thing! I really hope thigns get better for you.... But cutting yourself is so dangersou...what you need is a freind..and good friend who you can tlak to and tell verything to...just talking does help relese some pain...I use to have real bad problem then met my bestfriend and I can literally tell ehr everything..it may take time to find one and have her earn your trust but sweetie thats what you need...a good frind to help you through the tough times. =] May God Bless you!

Answer 8

Please tell your school counseler what you just told us and Ill bet they can help you get yourself together and start feeling good again,Dont let this keep festering inside of you,Your uncle is doing all he can and he doesn't mean to be so bossy as he also has gone through terrible saddness,Please see someone soon,Good luck and hope you get feeling better quickly.

Answer 9

I don't think your uncle is right, I think seeing a therapist would be the right thing. Maybe go to the one at your school, or maybe if you have a friend you truly trust a lot, talk to her about all of this. I'm sorry about what's happened to you. /:

Answer 10

yes you need to see someone and talk with him. it's not a sign of weakness to get help.