I don't know what's wrong with me! Am I crazy?

Question

I have had alot going on in the past year. I'll give you the 411: My mom is in rehab until Nov., I am moving to my dad's house in a new city, 7 of my best friends have moved out of state in 6 months, my friend killed herself last week, my dad is abusing me, my parents just divorced, and I can't see my mom for 2 more months. With all of the things going on, I have started cutting my arms. I am really scared that my dad is going to find out and beat the crap out of me. I was diagnosed with depression 2 months ago. Does this have anything to do with cutting my arms? I am only 12 and I think I'm going crazy. can anyone give me some advice? I am really scared and I need help.

Answer 1

Speak to an adult you trust, hon. A teacher, doctor or even a policeman. It's going to be a bit hard, getting this all out and telling someone everything, but you must stick to your guns, but BELIEVE ME. It WILL work out for the best in the end. Cutting yourself is a part of your depression and with help from people who know, you will stop. Whatever happens, you must remember one thing: YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME. YOU ARE A CHILD THAT HAS HAD YOUR CHILDHOOD STOLEN FROM YOU. Take it from someone who knows.
You can get through this, trust me and it will make you a stronger, wiser person when you have all this behind you. Please don't blame yourself for ANY of this. There IS a better life waiting for you in this world, you just have to keep being strong and make it happen by telling someone with the power to help you do something about it.
If you need to talk, please feel free to email me from my avatar and I will respond.
Life is what you make it. You CAN make it better. You CAN control your life. Love and kindness is really out there, waiting for you, you just have to go and get it.

I wish you the best of luck, little one.

Answer 2

If this is a real question you already know the answer. Yes the cutting is related to the depression, the abuse and the not seeing your Mom. It is about feeling like you have no control over anything and needing to express the pain that you are feeling.

So you need to do what the people here are telling you. You need to tell someone.

Two months seems like a long time when you are 12. Two months until you see your Mom.

If you type in Children's Services and the state that you live in into your search engine they will tell you where to go to for help.

If you are in Canada you can call the Kids Help phone at 1 800 668 6868. They can listen and help you figure out where to go.

You aren't the first kid who had a sucky life. I'm not saying this to sound cold. I'm saying it to let you know that you can get through it if you reach out for help. That is why the services are there. To help kids who need support until the good days are back again.

I hope you are telling the truth and not making this up. If you are you need another kind of help. 'cause people who make up stories like this hurt the people who really are, or have been, going through it.

If this is a for real story,and there are lots of kids with stories like this, I hope you come back and tell us the happy ending. About how you got some help. Tell someone. And if they don't listen, tell someone else. And keep telling until you find the right person. If your Dad is hurting you he does not have the right to have you with him in his home. And you have the right to be happy. That is a basic human right that any person has. Especially when you are 12.

Answer 3

Even if you are depressed, you should not be cutting yourself!! It can cause lasting damage and scars. If your dad is abusing you, you should tell someone, like a close relative, or a teacher at school. I am sorry you are going through those things, and I hope this helps you out-but you should NOT tolerate being abused any longer!!

Your father does not have the right to treat you that way & you need to be taken out of the home. I tried to look up some web sites, but most of them were out of the U.S. and I do not know what state you live in. If necessary, you could even call 911 and tell them what is going on. Run to a neighbor's house and tell them. You have to be brave & tell someone because you deserve to have a normal childhood!!

Good luck.

Answer 4

Wow for a 12 yr old u are going through a lot! Sorry to hear about your troubles. Maybe u should talk to someone (a professional) so u will learn how to deal with your situation better then cutting your arms. That is a sign of punishing yourself or u are just too young to deal with all of that alone! Sorry to hear about your firend taking her life that is truly NOT the answer and u should get some help. The doctor can help u find other answers and guide u to better solutions. Good Luck Hon.....U take care and do not give up and stop cutting yourself.

Answer 5

You're not crazy. Cutting is an outward symptom of serious internal pain - a lot of teenagers have done it. You've had to deal with more serious problems that most adults could handle in a very short time. Call the teen hotline in your area and get some help. Someone very knowledgeable should be with you when you tell your Dad, so he won't go off on you. Most adults don't understand cutting at all - they think if they just punish you, you'll stop. But that's not how it works, anymore than telling an alcoholic that they just need to stop drinking. You need serious experienced help to find different ways to handle your pain. I wish you well.

Answer 6

I think I can help you. If I can't I can at least try.
First of all, If your dad is abusing you then you should tell him
to stop. You need to tell the police or social services.
This is the first thing you should do. I know he puts a roof over
your head but if you need help there are so many people out
there willing to give it to you if you seek it.
Abuse is against the law.
Just because your dad abuses you doesn't mean you have to
abuse yourself and cut yourself. I am 27 and I have burned myself and cut myself on various parts of my body because I
felt like it helped me get rid of my inner tensions and aggressions.
If your dad finds out, he will get angry and he will most likely abuse you even more. One thing that helped me to stop hurting myself was through an outlet, a good outlet for the pain and the
rage and the fear you are having inside is a personal notebook.
When you cut yourself you see the red blood coming out of your
flesh you relate this color to the releif of your rage.
Instead of cutting your arms, get a red ink pen and a notebook
and draw or scribble with it whatever you are feeling inside.
Even if you have to use a crayon then you can do it.
You can even do it on your computer.
IF you do not want your father to see the pages then tear them up
or throw them away. You are not crazy. Many kids out there go
through things like this and this will feel a lot better than cutting
yourself. I promise. Next time you go to the store get the red ink pens ( Sharpies have the brightest red) and a notebook.
When you feel the urge to cut then cut the paper not your skin.
But before that, Please seek help from an adult besides your father. Your father needs help to. Help him by telling the police
that he is abusing you. Write a letter to the police if you have to.
I hope this helps you. I really do.
You don't need to hurt yourself to feel better.

Answer 7

You are NOT crazy.
Get to the children's aid or your doctor or the hospital emergency room and insist on speaking to a psychiatrist. Tell them you are suicidal, and very depressed. Tell them about your father's behaviour. They will remove you from the threatening environment, and situation. (foster care home or a shelter at first, or hospital room), You need & deserve help. Medication can help ease some of the depression, the professionals will know what else to do.
Get some money, pack items you consider important, in one large pack, call a taxi, and get to the emergency room of the nearest hospital AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. If you are not given proper service or respect, there, (unlikely scenario), mention the child abuse of Dad and show them your arms. (if that does not work, unlikely, call legal aid.)
I care about you. You are a good girl in a very messy situation not of your making.
Good luck, and get out of there now!
You deserve a decent happy life, security, and an even chance.
I am with you. If we were in the same city I would help immediately.
Dan.

Answer 8

Hi!

Sorry to hear of your misfortune! The reason you are cutting your arms is because you are giving your mind something to focus on rather than all of the stuff that has been going on lately this is called self halm you are not the only person who does this a number of people actually use this to cope with depression or hurt too! What i suggest you do is look for somebody to speak to like a councilor for example there are many who offer free sessions to young people i am currently with one myself at the moment because im a sack full of anger.....but anyway talk about your feelings and whats happened then this will help you understand why you are doing this to yourself and how to stop doing it! But seriously babe talk to someone and you will soon find that you will start to be ok again it wont be immediatly but gradually you will get better and better and all that has happened to you will only make you stronger later in life! :0)

Answer 9

You need to find someone you can trust. This might be a teacher at school, a grandparent, or a friend's mom. You need to tell this person everything that is going wrong and ask them to help you get out of your situation.

I realize that it seems like everyone's an ****** and no one cares, but you have to believe me when I say that there are people out there who don't want to see you like this.

You say you were diagnosed with depression. Whomever diagnosed you might be the person to get in contact with. The cutting is certainly a symptom of deep depression. You are compelled to cut, but it sounds like that is the least of your problems.

Seriously, find someone you can trust, get away from your dad. See if you can stay with a friend's family for a while.

I hope things work out for you.

Answer 10

Actually, (sadly) cutting in your situation is probably normal ://

The reason I used to hurt myself was because I couldn't "feel anything" i'd get NUMB. It sounds like your in a pain overload and your mind/feelings are shutting down to protect you. Since your just looking at the world, your cutting to KNOW YOUR ALIVE. That you exist. STOP IT, trust me, it doesn't help and it ONLY GROWS WORSE. I have friends from when I went to group therapy that have to let blood out every single day and are scarred for life.

What I reccommend is for you to TURN YOUR FATHER IN FOR CHILD ABUSE if he's that bad. You will be protected from him and may be able to stay in the same area as your Mother and be able to get visits with her. Do NOT worry about what will happen to your father, he didn't worry about what would happen to you. I'm so sorry about your friends, but that is something beyone your control and you need to let them go, I recommend going to the public library and checking out a book on Grief (like when people die, and they stages you can expect to go through). The first step is denial, your in shock and don't believe she's dead, it doesn't really "fit" into the way you view the world. Then it starts sinking in and that's when the real pain starts, so GOOD LUCK and remember to DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU!!! Your only 12, so this is alot to think about!